If only.

So dreams seem a mile away, I can feel stress building up on me, like I'm a very solid foundation. D: If I were to make my 'If Only' or 'I wish' list right now, it would definitely reach the sky.

I am definitely wishing that Science wouldn't be so complicated, and I could understand it perfectly well, that I wouldn't even have to study for the test.
I am hoping that September 18th will quickly come and I'll be finally free from French classes. But if it quickly comes, I will hardly have time to study.
Could you, oh plain, brown, soil-filled earth, just swallow me up?

Mygawd, what an unproductive day today is.

My mind is whirling. French, ISCF thingy, how next week I need  to free myself from all unnecessary activities, get together slumber with Sarah (when?!), November, birthday ruined, Award's Night - only to have a French exam right after party day!, him, them, that, this, Jon's already planning a Christmas party!

I told him its only  September. :P

Time's running, and I can't stop it. Using every last breath in me to keep up with it. D: Have to get back to work. No worries. I still can smile. :)

P/s. I watched Facing the Giants yesterday and didn't cry. In your face Sapphiraa! :P I mean, I teared a bit, but didn't cry buckets like when I watched Fireproof.

catch that dream before it flies.

French class calls, I still haven't started studying for the major exam, and History + Art have been prolonged since like, forever. Its unbelievable that the first week of September just soared by.

Well, today I actually managed to get quite a reasonable amount of work done! :) Math took ages, and I got so frustrated cause I was thinking so hard and everyone was yapping like crazy loud around me. Gosh, got so pissed, I just stood up, marched out of the room and sat down by the computers for 15 minutes till I could go back in. It so happened that Melinda was by the computers and needed my help. :P

And when I walked back in, the peace and quiet was restored. :)

Plus, lunch was a commical affair with guys and "What about me, Sarah?" JOELLL! :D Haha, at the end of chapel, Uncle Kevin was like, "Guys who think they're hot, stand up." And we girls were like, "JOEEL! Stand up!" loools. Not that Joel thinks he's hot (he's not perasan kay), but we do. ;P He's awesomee. Like, some guys actually did stand up cause guys are vain and perasan.

And next week there's no school on Monday (again!) so that means Vickie and I can skip lunch duty again! :D So totally rad eh? :P

I gotta go munch on my yummy chocolate chip cookies and get read for French class. :) Pray I sustain the evils of a different language called Française. Whatever you do, don't learn French. Whatever you do.

Ashley Tisdale Its Alright, Its Okay

of pains, books, and etc ever after.

You have no idea how I complain. But seriously, you have to pity me. I get over my PMS and stomach cramps, etc. only to get gastric problems for 3 days straight. And I never had gastric problems till last year the day before Award's Night when I went to the doctor's at 4am.

Trust me, I do not starve myself. Yea yea, I know. I look absolutely skinny and whatever more, but honestly. Believe me, I eat a ton. For my size, at least. I mean, I eat more than my sister does.

I totally don't deserve this.

I am totally freaking out. Today has been the most productive day ever, not. I still have tons of school work to do, catch up with the due dates and all. I mean, I need to live up to my own standards, at least. And, I dread, cause it looks like I might stay home tomorrow, and I still have French notes to write....

and Test #2 for French is AT THE END OF SEPTEMBER.

Someone, please save me.

Not to mention Test #3, the most final one, is in the middle of November. D: Really, I am in such a devastating mood currently. It must be my hormones. Producing enzymes (or whatever they produce) that are making me depressed, stressed, and pained - in the stomach of course.

But anyway, big thanks to Bee and Kelv, the cousins. :D hahaha. They kept me entertained while I felt terrible, and Kelvin and I wrote the most entertaining nonsense story. Wanna read? I know you want to. :)

One day, we landed in this faraway island. We met a routs. We also met a routss. Routs and routss are siblings. They come from Kokking Island. So, we went to Kokking Island. Then, we met routssss. Routssss is routs and routss' father and also routsss' husband. We decided to look for routsss. While looking for routsss, we met routssssss which is routsss' grandchild. We decided that routsss is still alive. Finally, we found routsss. Apparently, she had divorced routssss and had a new husband named mouts. And the cycle goes on with the mouts. The End.

Only, it was way better written, but I can't remember it all to very clearly. But it was terribly hilarious. Couldn't stop laughing. Especially the divorce part and all. :P But trust me, it was his Language Arts assignment. We were to pretend we didn't know names of anything and name them anything we wanted. Plus, it was about Dr. Seuss, what to expect. :)

But, I adore Dr. Suess. Green eggs and ham. :P

Oh, and I've been into Anne of Green Gables books. As in, the series, ya'know. :D On the 4th one now, Anne of Windy Poplars. But the favorite is definitely Anne of the Island. I adore Gilbert, he's so nice. But you know me right, I totally fall for the heros in the books. If I could pick from my classic heros - say.. Gilbert (from Anne of Green Gables), Darcy (from Pride and Prejudice), or Laurie (from Little Woman) - I would definitely pick Gilbert. Darcy does seem a little too proud, and Laurie doesn't even marry the heroine in the end. (Although Laurie and Amy suit each other perfectly, it just isn't an ending I would want). And Gilbert is just all to nice to be true, he loves her no matter what. And although Anne is altogether very ignorant to the fact that she and Gilbert were meant to be, I still like Anne. :)

Oh, and the movie (Anne of Green Gables) is nice but I can't stand the fact that Gilbert does not look at all like how I would imagine him to be. And they do change the nicest part of the book. For example, Gilbert never was engaged to another girl in the book, but in the movie he was and he broke up with her to get back with Anne. Although its ultra romantic and all, it totally spoils the book. I mean, he not being engaged to another girl and only loving Anne and Anne only is the best part. Movies do spoil books.

I know, I'm a hopeless romantic. But, what to do? :P