take a breath.

I'm shaking all over with weakness, and I'm not exaggerating. I'm quite sure I'm over exerting myself, thus I'm taking a little break. I haven't blogged since last Sunday, which is quite an accomplishment. Its been a busy week.

I've been working on Camp Tees the whole entire week and just now, I had to redo the whole design just to make the resolution higher. Its quite frustrating, but I'm finished. :D My mom says when I feel weak ( I felt weak on Tuesday as well) I should eat sugar or maybe I don't have enough oxygen?

WHAT? I am breathing.
*takes a deep breath and exhales*

So let's hope its the sugar reason. Thus, I can have a sugar rush and eat candy in school for the reason of feeling faint if I don't. muahah.

I miss Zoe and Matthew extreme.  Just received a letter in the mail from Zoe on Monday, it was so awesomely exciting. Now, we are writing the longest emails to each other. Private stuff, straight from the heart, and its so nice to ramble to each other. :) I'll probably email Melissa sooon, when I have the time.

I need to continue my art piece and crocheting, plus I really want to go work out in my beloved pool, j'aime beaucoup fait de la natation. :D Plus, I need to review my French, cause I have this feeling a pop quiz will pop up or something and I'll do badly.

Well well, I need to finish writing my Language Arts speech and finish writing notes and the last Self Test for my evil Science 903. Its so freaking hard okay. And I need to review it really well so I don't fail like everyone does. Oh evil sedimentary, igneous, metaphoric rocks as well as continental shelves and volcanoes. Ugh.

Charmaine, thanks for feeling me. haha! :P

Well, birthday wishes before I carried away yea. :)

Gilbert Tan (May 13th) - Thanks for being a great and irritating friend, but we definitely miss your presence in school. Haha, okay not really but.. :P

Fai (May 15th) - We miss your cuteness. hahaha. Like how you can never say "hi" to me, loool. And you in chapel practice strumming your bass. :)

Uncle Kevin (May 16th) -

We really miss youu okay. :) Thanks for being such a great role-model.

Brenda Cher (May 19th) - For being a friend even if we don't see each other often and stuff.

Lydia Chech (May 22nd) -

Color coded sisters.

Wakaka. :)

Pictures about how awesomely crazy her day was will be up soon. :D Keep tuned, cause you'll see how she will look like when she's an aunty. :P

of birthdays!

Belated Birthday wishes for Mr. Brandon Tan :)

And extra belated birthday to Gilbert.

bruning coals upon my head

I slapped you on the cheek, but you turned around and let me slap the other. You overcome evil with good, making my fault obvious to all.
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One day, my third grade teacher posted a stick figure of a boy on the white board. We were then asked to bully it. We all lined up, threw sponges full of water at him, scribbled at him, shouted at "him". Literally, bullied him.

After we were satisfied, she walked up to the board, and took off the torn and wet picture. Underneath, there was a picture of Jesus. He was ruined as well, wet and scribbled all over. You could see the wound that you yourself had made. I remember her telling the class the meaning of this activity, and then saying, "Even hazel did it," as if I were a perfect person.

But no, indeed I am not.

You know, it took a long time to get that message my teacher taught me into my head. Ever since I was a 9 year old till now, a 14 year old. And every message I hear takes time to sink in. You only fully get it when you experience it.

Let's just say, this time I got the easy way. Which is something I should be grateful about. To think, I hurt a real human boy. Not just a stick figure. And.. I hurt Jesus. A relief that I wasn't the stick fellow, but I was the bully.

So here's the post about all about my misdoings. I'm a terrible sinner.

You were called "the most annoying boy I ever knew". I complained that you always like to disturb me. I whacked you, yes seriously. I think your the first boy I ever whacked. I scolded you, complained, talked behind your back, and called you names.

And all you did was return it with good.

Romans 12:17;21-22:
Do not repay anyone evil for evil.. On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

I don't know whether you even know about this verse, but who cares, you put it into action. I'm sure I wasn't considered an enemy, well I hope not, but you still returned my evil with good.

Yes, and in returning good, you've made my fault obvious for all to see. That's what the burning coals on his head means. In olden days, giving coals to others was an act of kindness. But on someone's head? That's a little weird. What the scriptures really mean is you're doing kindness as a get back. You're overcoming it, with good.

I'm sorry. I now appreciate your little acts of kindness. So many times, I thought you had so much more to learn in life. Now I realize that I do too. We're only learning together, step-by-step.

There's a Jesus inside each and everyone of us. When you hurt someone, you're hurting Jesus as well. Don't ever forget that.

You've been a great friend, Gilbert. I love you.

ahem. yea riighhttt

So this is how it goes, Gilbert started talking to me on MSN. He's ultra annoying. Seriously. teehee. Anyway, I somehow stirred the topic to who he likes.

gilbert.. says:
y everybody say i LIKE her
gilbert.. says:
?
hazelchazel says:
HAHAHAHAHA
hazelchazel says:
cause we think you do
gilbert.. says:
...........
hazelchazel says:
..........
gilbert.. says:
i got someone better in my mind
gilbert.. says:
i know her very well
gilbert.. says:
more than tommy no me
hazelchazel says:
oh really ahh
hazelchazel says:
who?
gilbert.. says:
MY MAMA
hazelchazel says:
LOL
hazelchazel says:
haahahahahah!
gilbert.. just sent you a nudge.
hazelchazel says:
I should post that on my blog
gilbert.. says:
better do
hazelchazel says:
okay I will
hazelchazel says:
then you go see
gilbert.. says:
make sure
hazelchazel says:
i'll proof lah
hazelchazel says:
you go see after I'm done dong!
gilbert.. says:
OK

So yea, here's your proof Gilbert Tan. tsk.
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Anyway, today was one rush of a day. Come to think of it, I hardly did any work. So yea, right after break we were rushed into the reception to get our cheerleading costume whatever you call it thingy. heh. It's green and white, but at least it's cheap. Well, cheaper than 140 lah. I mean, it's okay. There was this rush of changing, and finding the right size. Paul Mae is wearing a big size skirt then me. I know, how embarrassing. =\

Well, after practice there was worship practice. So I was pretty much rushing here and there. =) oh well, it feels good to be 'doing' something, ya know. =P