that windy road.

>> FAST FORWARDD!

Geez, that is exactly what I feel like doing. :) I wanna fast forward my life and see all that's ahead. Cause currently, I'm getting a bit impatient. Pretty soon though, I'll be wanting to press the :Space: button and pause the way too fast speedy life of mine. ahahah.

 'Nways, time to be honest. I survived today. hehas. I knew I would, but I didn't want to, and I really really didn't try to. :P But, I did. And best of all, I've finally taken one step closer in discovering who I really am. No, not who I am when my friends are there, not who I am when my family is around, not who I am when the authorities above me are present. Nahh, who I really really am. No matter who I'm with, no matter if there's strangers around me, or if my long lost friend is right beside me, if the hottest guy in the whole entire world is right in front of me, who cares! x) I'm being who I am.

With the 'who I really am' in mind, I discovered a liitle bit of it today. :D

You know what I really want? I want to be that person whom people respect, look up to, ask help from, and lastly - but certainly not least - the Hazel who acts herself. It's so hard for me to be the real me; it's like I'm always acting. Sighs. Yes, I want to be that person that when people talk about me, they'll say, "I like the way she's always herself, no matter what people think about her." Peer pressure is so strong. I don't want it to affect me, at all.

On a lighter note, today was quite a day. Managed to do most my work in the midst of helping Grace and tutoring Joshua. 'Tutoring' by the way, is really funny. He just couldn't understand and I have no idea how he got this: 3 x 4 = 23. Like, hahaha! I was so good at getting him to do his work, he started calling me mom. Like, whateverr okay. xP Then, Miss Cath sent me Emily, and I was trying to help Josh when Em's like, "Hazel, hazel, hazel, hazellll!"

Josh: See, now everyone wants Hazel. You need help too, right Tommy?
Emily: Hazel, hazel, hazel!!
Hazel: WAIT, one at a time!
Josh: Let's all call Hazel..
Em, Josh, and Tommy: Hazel, hazel, hazel!!!

Riighhto. I was so occupied.

&& I must 'rant and rave' now - as my sis puts it. I did 25 books last quarter! :D I know, it sounds like I'm boasting, but I'm proud of my accomplishment. I mean, last quarter been busy, and I've been having fun, haven't I? I'm not sure myself how I managed to take all those 25 test, but I have. Honestly I didn't work hard - and Sarah and Zoe goes, "Yeaa righttt. Didn't work hard, eh?!" hahaha.

That was the ranting. Now for the raving.

I MISS JON. PERIOD.

What else can I say? I just miss him. School's so incomplete without him, and I'm serious. Sarah was like, "No one's going to poke me anymore." Sighs. I heard "Aiyo, Jon's not here anymore lahh." continuiously through the day. We all miss this or that part of what you were when you were still here. I'm never gonna forget you, korkor. Larryboy. :)

reach the sky.

Sunday was.. busy, busy, busy! Saw Micheal Wong, and Deborah - who was Miss. Malaysia - and other celebrities. Um, didn't meet them face to face lahh, just saw them on the stage. ;D

Err, I was surrounded by people who were speaking who knows what dialect of Chinese. It was so confussing, I kept on going, "Um, English pleasee." hahah. And Micheal Wong sang in Chinese. He has a killer voice, serious. It's SO nice. Other than that, I can't understand a thing he's singing, but it sounds nice. Like, not rock and not too Chinese.. just nice! =)

Oh! and I was busy doing something for Mommy, and I missed the cheerleading! Like, OMG! Whatcha bummer! I really wanted to see it, cause I had seen GUYS doing somersaults before hand and I wanted to see GUYS cheerleading. Cause GUYS in GRC should join! hahaha. :P

Hmm, yea. I got this headache in the morning yesterday, like at 8 and I already got a headache. Ate Penadol, it wasn't working, and went to the First Aid room to rest for a while. Being so early in the morning, they were still setting up, but most of them were very sympathetic, cause I know all the staff mahh. xP So yea, the ambulance people were arriving, and they were staring at me. It was freakeyy, o_O.

Other than that, school started. Really, I wasn't forced to go today, after having such a busy day, but I wanted to, so managed to pull myself outta bed and go. School is just pure fun. (: Laugh with Pom, go to toilets with Grace, just be myself with Raquel and Zoe. Love you guys! :D

And we switched tables. I'm beside Sarah See and Jac. =) Melissa is not far away. And Zoe and Raquel are across from me, so we can stand up, and talk. ahahah. The bad thing is, in that very quiet corner, there is hardly any ventilation, and you can smell sweat from the boys that used to sit there. =\

I was in the toilet...
Chanelle ...cause the world is against me!!
Melissa they are, it is?

It was so funny how Melissa suddenly switched her plural form. ; ) Listening to Chanelle's and Melissa's conversation is so absolutely amusing. =)

all in a day.

Geez. Woke up a perfectly good time for vacation @7.30 to find that I had 5 missed calls and 1 SMS. I was sleeping really soundly at 11 last night. Hmmphh. It was Jon, saying that today's outing to school was not canceled, and to come to school. Gosh, I sleepily walked into my sister's room and then had a nice session with the parents. Then, what a rush, getting ready in 30 minutes. =X

Well, yea. Arrived at school at 9. Honestly, I had no expectations of having a fun time. Really, I planned a day just diving onto the couch, reading to my heart's content, washing the bathroom, being spastic! Hmphh, and then this sister of mine, along with Jon and Wee, go plan to go to school again. So here I was in school, sitting there reading Island Stallion Fury while listening to my sister going, "Where's Weeyen! I'm so bored" and Jon memorizing Bible king's name and at the same time, SMSing Weeyen, "Where are you?!" about 20 times. Yes, and wasting OUR credit. It was really a fun day.

To end it off, Weeyen finally arrived. We hung out for a while longer, and I finished my book in about 2 hours. Ordered Mackers again - this time we got it delivered - and waited about another hour. The delivery man takes ages! Mm, the other three went up the ramp about 3 times to collect food that wasn't there yet. Well, it finally came. Hmm, spent our time testing out each other's coke - we all literally drank from everyone's cup - to see who's was the strongest. Mine was the weakest, it literally was fizzy water that was brown. We were laughing like spastic, cause jon was planning a secret scheme that shall be kept between us four, and was talking about black paper, and Weeyen went, "What! Wrap ourselves in it?" HAHAHAH. :P It was actually for the window, but Jon suddenly went, "Can also, just bring a bit more extra."

Okay, enough talk on what happen and how, and what etc. In the end, I had a much 'funner' day than I had expected. To end off my What I Did Today, I watched Jon after lunch playing this soccer game. They scream, shout, and JUMP when they score a goal. Pfftt.

Really, I just had a great day in overall. I'm just amazed at how close we all just get along together. Who would of imagined last year when the Changsters first joined GRC that they'll fit in so well? We were so out then. I definitely felt out, then. Man, I'm just so grateful for you all. Maybe you all won't get it, but I've just lost so many friends, this year, last year, years before that, that somehow I don't trust anyone, anymore. Honestly, my heart pins for a real friend. Maybe, I still don't have one, but I got lots of buddies that I can laugh at, whisper with, and just have fun with. Really truly, I love you. (:

yet not an ordinary day.

Well, today I pitched of the the "so called" restricted school with chicken poxs. We arrived there to find Fai walking around everywhere. Appearantly the center wasn't open but Mr Fan was inside, and he didn't dare go in. hahah. We didn't dare knock on the door, and were about to walk to Wee's house when Mr Fan must of heard us, and opened the door. Did my 710 test that I was suppose to do yesterday. =P Bee arrived and decided to join me and Matthew to a visit at Shab's. We walked there ourselves, since Shab took ages coming to 'pick us up'. It was quite fun, laughing and talking. And man, Nyvish with his classic comments about who's with who in the school. "You know! Paullyn likes Tommy. No, seriously!" Matthew was like, "what! Serious ahh?" o_O hahah.

Went to the park and hung out. It was just totally unfair cause someone finally beat me in swinging. Well, actually, same height, but i gave up, I was just totally exhausted! =\ I don't care Matthew Tan, I'm gonna beat you one day. x) Oh, and yea. It was funny. People throwing MY SHOES at each other while I watch them on top of the slide and yea.. Matthew sweating till it drips!

Well, then lunch. Was sitting with Paullyn, and she immediately told me from the start, "Hazel, I'm not scared of cats anymore." I was like, "REALLYY!" There was a cat around, and she stood up with her apple juice and started looking for it. We were like, "what are you going to do? Drench it in apple juice?" hahahaa! Then later, "eee, the cat is pregnant!" HAHAHAA. She asked, "Do cats give birth to eggs or cats?" It was SO hilarious! =D

okayy, enough for now. It was quite a fun day, except after lunch I was really bored. =X Hmms, Shab I want to pics. Paullyn, boys code! She herself said her's is #4. HAHAHAA. And foreva #14. =)

Yea Yes. We know.

Score! School hasn't started yet, Hazel! oh, who cares. I have a lot to score. oh shucks! tsk! Why is it wrong?!?! Jonnn!! I need help. And to think, I need to take test today. pffttt. Hazel, I don't understand. Math is driving me nutss! AHHHH! Hazel!! I have to take two test! *groans* Mr Fransis, LPT pleasee. Go eat lunch Hazel! um, I'm almost finished.. Shucks! I can't solve this problem. New Math book and new Bible book pleasie please. Um, Mr Fransis.. new Bible book pleasee. hmpt. Isaac Thong, I need help. I need help mister! Hey Hazel, what's x times x?

Yes, the regular racket of school. It's back.. and I'm glad. :)
Other than that, the day was perfectly fine.

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See if you can spot Jesus. It's rather chill. :D

"ily ily ily." Me too, dear. And I finally got to talk to Becca again. What joy!
First it was Becca, then Sarah Shuman. hahaa. What delight, seriously!

Ume Tei Delight!

Yesterday, my family and I headed off to a mysterious restaurant after church. Well, it was mysterious to my mother, not to the rest of us of coursee. We had a delicious birthday dinner at a Japanese restaurant!

Pictures will tell the story..

While waiting for the food..
I got bored so I set up all my utensils and tea
for a most artistic picture in my eyes. LOL.

a Nigeri Sushi set which I ordered. =D

my sister's food. Sashimi Set!
Doesn't those big fat cubes of raw salmon make you so hungry?

Tempura!

This was part of my mom's interesting set.
Those round balls of stuff has mashed potatoes inside. Yum!

She also got a few pieces of sashimi. =)

That's pretty much all the pictures. I wish I had taken more pictures and the expressions on our faces when we were eating. OMG! Food delight! I was too busy eating to take anymore. But I guarantee, it was scrumptious!
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And right now? The only word I can describe about how I'm feeling now is EXHAUSTED. Litterally, let's just say I'm tired of blowing my nose. I'm tired of being sick. And my gosh, I got sore yesterday cause of cheerleading on Friday. I know, I'm totally not fit. I'm much better today concerning sore-ness cause I put some sorta Ammi Votara cream which is totally unpredictable. I just proved that it works. Well, a bit lah. =\ It makes my hands so sticky.

I seriously think I can put the amount of tissues I use in the World Record book thingy. It's like type two words, and blow. =( *sniff* And worst of all, my parents aren't allowing us to go to school tomorrow. They insist that we rest. And if you don't know the Chang sisters, we'll probably do more work than ever in all our boredom. So yea, don't miss me too much and pray I get better k? And that I'll be able to bear my sis well. Or something like that. Stop her from working. lol?

Make sure you guys give me a full update of what happens tomorrow.
I'm depending on you all. =)

it's called craziness

How crazy can we get get these days? I mean, super duper crazy. We're all gonna fall sick if we do that again. Anyone want to join us?? ahahaha.

Today the bunch of us went to hang out in school. Okay, it was a bit boring except at the end when our boredom got to worst of us. I think we all had a bit too much energy stored up in us. Had to get it out in the rain, of all places. (=

That why I love you all. When we get to act crazy!! weeee...

It's called boredom that made us want to go to the playground while it was raining. Yea, I abandoned my books and stuff under the shade thingy at the park. Then we all went nutts-os in the rain. This isn't called dancing in the rain it's called swinging in the rain. haha. Swinging competitions again. And guess who won as usual?? okay, I shalln't be perasan but of course the only hazelchazel won!! ehehehe...

Yea, we're the craziest people in the world. Who's idea was it by the way? ahaha. I mean right, Paul Mae got super cold and Mr. Isaac Thong the smart one was tired and then went out in the rain. It means getting sick. ahem ahem.

Oh wells, it was fun when it lasted. Plus, we all like acting like children once in a while.

I'm still a child. Don't forget that. hehe...
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oh yea, after that (with my hair drenched with rain water) I cut-ted my hair. it doesn't look very different. My sis' one does. Man, it's as short as Paullyn's. ahaha.

It was time...

It was time for funness today. I mean, I was ready for it. After being rather bored during the last couple of days, it was nice to go to school again. I had funnn (=

Yea, great relief to find out all my friends are still alive. Okay, I kid. But it was still cool seeing Paullyn, Paul Mae, Shu Way, Dawn, Shabeta, Emily, Roberts, Tommy, Bryant, Soph, Kelvin, Fai, and even Ai Theeng from Klang!!

Lunch time proved to be full of laughter. You should seriously listen to Shu Way talking crap. It's rather amusing. Like this one:

Paul Mae: tell me a joke Shu Way!!
Shu Way: oh ok. Why did the skeleton cross the road?
Tommy: Cause he had no guts.
(everybody was not laughing)
Shu Way: correct!! Harharharhar (he seriously said harhar, it's not to indicate laughter.)
everyone burst out into laughter.

Yea, this is what you call lame jokes that make you laugh. Paul Mae seriously couldn't stop laughing. We were quite flabbergasted.

this is what happens when your too kind to your friend...

My name is : Hazel

But u can call me : hazel-chazel-mazel-bazel

Never in my life have I : went to the capital of Maine

The one person who can drive me nuts is : my sister

My high school is : GRCland (i miss school)

When i'm nervous : grip my skirt, or if not wearing skirt, grip my pants

The last song i listened 2 was : listening to it now Voice of Truth

If i were to get married rite now, it would be 2 : someone no one knows

My hair is : cool!! I luv it. Except it's getting too long

When I was 4 : I ran around the house with no t-shirt on!

Last Christmas : was interesting and funnn

I should be more : disciplined in my work. bummers!

When i look down, i see : the keyboard

The happiest recent event was : the last day of school. Not because I hate school. It was just funn.

The saddest recent event was : Award's Night went too fast!!

If i were a character on "Friends" : I'll be seriously blurcase girl then.

By tis time next year : i'll be fourteen!! woot..

My current grip is : music

I have hard time understanding : Science!! Aghhh

There are these girls : whom I luv!!

If I won an award, the 1st person i would tell would be : my friends.

I want to buy : a wallet

Where do u plan 2 visit : plan and going in two weeks! Cambodia!!

If you'd spend the night at my house : You'll have funn. Guarantee.

The world could do without : bad words.

The most recent thing i've bought myself : hmm, food!!

Most recent thing some1 else bought 4 me : Christmas present. :|

My middle name is : Tian Ai (i find it interesting when Malaysians get confused about middle names!!)

In the morning I : woke up and wanted to go back to sleep!!

Last night I : used the comp!!

There's this guy i know : who totally rocks!! Most guys rock.

If i were an animal, I'd be : a dog? I don't really intend to be an animal!!

A better name 4 me would be : hazelchazel. i guess

My b'day is : Guess. Just have to read my blog and you'll find out. ahaha.

I tag : Nobody. If Roberts had a blog, I would tag him.

That reminds me. I thought I'll test Roberts. See whether he comments!!

ahaha.. That's it for today. Whatcha lonnng post.