being, basically, ... ME!

I'm happy, convicted, but somehow, I just can't be bothered to care. Its so unlike me, yet so like me, and I love it, yet hate it. You'll never guess this, but! I haven't done school work since tuesday. So, the last I did work was Monday, and that was hardly anything. =X I'm super behind my planning, but I can't be bothered, seriously. Camp has kept me busy, busy, and I can't wait for tomorrow! :D

I got to see my kor, and he looks black. No offence, but like, he definitely had a major tan. :) And I got an awesome Muskiteer, and a Snickers. :P I know, I'm awesome.

Raquel and Zoe are probably in a huge bundle of fun at this very moment. Probably talking about you-know-what, hot guys, movies, girl talk! D: So jealous. But then, I got Raquel jealous today that she isn't going for camp, so hah! xD

I need to finish packing, finish reading The Princess Diaries #1, get ready! I dislike packing for anything, cause I have to plan in advance what to wear, and i like to do that at the split-second.  Plus, all the ironing, folding, squishing and squashing. Not pleasant. Agh.

Well, quick review on the latest book, Tommy Sulivan is a Freak or also called Pants on Fire. (Bee pointed out to me that Shane West in A Walk to Remember acted as Tommy Sulivan in the school play when Mandy Moore sang Only Hope. She has the greatest memory!) Anyway, getting back to the book, its absolutely wonderful. I'll rate it 9/10. I'm in love with Tom Suilivan, he's soo nice. Like Charmaine said, he loves her but he lets go, because if you love someone, you'll let go! :) Its crazy sweet.

Currently reading; Princess Diaries. Its okay, nothing great.

It seems very necessary that I blog often these days.

My Zozo is growing up! :D But, then again, my condolence. To the fullest. Welcome to teenager's torture. :P And I so don't believe you're as tall as Bee, but we shall see. :) SOON!

Well, I got to talk to her on the phone yesterday. Its been ages since I've heard her voice, like at least 3 months, maybe less, cause she used to call me. I couldn't even recognize her voice cause I wasn't sure whether it was her cousins or her. :P And no, for the thousandth time, she does not have an accent. (P/s. Everyone's been asking me that, Zoe.)

I passed that horrid French test by the lowest grade ever, but at least I passed. My teacher kept insisting that everyone had gotten 'tres bien' grades, and then I look at my results and I'm like, "Yea riiightt." It was 63% and passing mark is 50%. But, I'm glad I passed!

Tomorrow, there a futsal tornament that will occupy my whole day and make me get into a bad mood by the end of the day! But, thankfully, I escaped from playing and will be doing first aid. Tres tres bien. At least I don't have to waste my whole day chasing after a ball which I'll never get, and can seat myself in the corner, entertain myself with the camera, do some school work, and and get entertained by girl's screaming at the ball and guys showing off. What to do, we are humans. :P But I much rather prefer girls acting girls then guys showing off. :P

On the other hand, I have the most idiotic bet with Isaac, its too stupid for words. :P But what to do when guys are just plain smart. :)

I have a billion and one assignments to do, its so terribly hard to work while sitting beside Bee, but I get her to do tons and tons of work. :P She finished a Math book in one week. :) So proud of my honey bee. But, pretty soon if I don't get myself disciplined, I'm gonna start burning midnight oil. =\

I can't wait to graduate. It seems such great fun to plan your future, what college you want to go to, what to study, getting enough credits, etc. I've counted, and once I finally get out of school, I'll have 20 credits from my plain 5 subjects, 3 credits from Home Ex, Art, and Health/Health Quest, plus 2 credits from French. Thus, 25 credits. For what do I need so much?

P/s. Jon's probably on the plane at this moment. Or, back already. :) You have no idea how much I miss him. I have no idea what I shall do when he goes to college. *shakes head* ;)

WHAT'S UP? CAMP? Here I comeee. :) 4 more days.

So, guessie. Vacation's not going good. I've been getting so freaking sick so many times, it's so blahh, and yeaa. You getcha mee, thou does?

Yesterday was not a good day. Woke up with a headache and had to go to my mom's office to work. After one hour, I seriously couldn't stand it so Mommy sent me and my sister back home. Slept for the entire day with my head and throat burning and I was throwing up furiously. Finally went to the doctor's at around 7.30pm. Was given all sorts of medicine to take. So, went back home, took medecine, 'ello pillow for the thousandeth time. Thennn, I got hungry so I took a BIG bite into a cereal bar and threw up. I am soooo smart.

Well, now I'm feeling quite okay. Kinda dehidrated, but not as bad as yesterday. My stomach is acting up with gastric but I can't eat cause I'll throw up, etc. How pathetic is thatt? What more, if you have gastic, you should walk about, but I can't cause if I do, I'll throw up cause I'm gizzy.

I feel like eating. A lot. D:




..but I can't, cause currently I feel like throwing up.

Hummbuggs, I'm ciao-ing.

ooh, oohh. BUT. Birthday wishess..
On the 5th - Birthday blessings Ian Fan! Hope you had a great one.
On the 8th - CHELSEA! Although I'm not that close to you, still remember the sleepovers you had with my sis and the garlic powder times. :P Mmmm. :)
On the 9th - My very huggable big brother of mine, Larryboy. Hope you had a wonderful one. Sorry I couldn't come to school or wish you in time, sickness killss! x)
On the 10th - Mrs. Dot Shuman! Thanks for being a great teacher and grandmother, well kinda, since Becka and I were so close. And for mowing our lawn, and for everything. Love and miss ya.
On the 11th - An early wish. I like Facebook, they inform you of birthdays. hahah. Sara Doyon! :) Well, you're like years older than me, so you seemed kinda superior, but yea. You left that great high and popular impression on me. :P Well, Happy birthday!
to all of youuu. And the more to come.

Now, I'm really ciao-ing. Headache's acoming.

that windy road.

>> FAST FORWARDD!

Geez, that is exactly what I feel like doing. :) I wanna fast forward my life and see all that's ahead. Cause currently, I'm getting a bit impatient. Pretty soon though, I'll be wanting to press the :Space: button and pause the way too fast speedy life of mine. ahahah.

 'Nways, time to be honest. I survived today. hehas. I knew I would, but I didn't want to, and I really really didn't try to. :P But, I did. And best of all, I've finally taken one step closer in discovering who I really am. No, not who I am when my friends are there, not who I am when my family is around, not who I am when the authorities above me are present. Nahh, who I really really am. No matter who I'm with, no matter if there's strangers around me, or if my long lost friend is right beside me, if the hottest guy in the whole entire world is right in front of me, who cares! x) I'm being who I am.

With the 'who I really am' in mind, I discovered a liitle bit of it today. :D

You know what I really want? I want to be that person whom people respect, look up to, ask help from, and lastly - but certainly not least - the Hazel who acts herself. It's so hard for me to be the real me; it's like I'm always acting. Sighs. Yes, I want to be that person that when people talk about me, they'll say, "I like the way she's always herself, no matter what people think about her." Peer pressure is so strong. I don't want it to affect me, at all.

On a lighter note, today was quite a day. Managed to do most my work in the midst of helping Grace and tutoring Joshua. 'Tutoring' by the way, is really funny. He just couldn't understand and I have no idea how he got this: 3 x 4 = 23. Like, hahaha! I was so good at getting him to do his work, he started calling me mom. Like, whateverr okay. xP Then, Miss Cath sent me Emily, and I was trying to help Josh when Em's like, "Hazel, hazel, hazel, hazellll!"

Josh: See, now everyone wants Hazel. You need help too, right Tommy?
Emily: Hazel, hazel, hazel!!
Hazel: WAIT, one at a time!
Josh: Let's all call Hazel..
Em, Josh, and Tommy: Hazel, hazel, hazel!!!

Riighhto. I was so occupied.

&& I must 'rant and rave' now - as my sis puts it. I did 25 books last quarter! :D I know, it sounds like I'm boasting, but I'm proud of my accomplishment. I mean, last quarter been busy, and I've been having fun, haven't I? I'm not sure myself how I managed to take all those 25 test, but I have. Honestly I didn't work hard - and Sarah and Zoe goes, "Yeaa righttt. Didn't work hard, eh?!" hahaha.

That was the ranting. Now for the raving.

I MISS JON. PERIOD.

What else can I say? I just miss him. School's so incomplete without him, and I'm serious. Sarah was like, "No one's going to poke me anymore." Sighs. I heard "Aiyo, Jon's not here anymore lahh." continuiously through the day. We all miss this or that part of what you were when you were still here. I'm never gonna forget you, korkor. Larryboy. :)

meet the brothers,

Day of Excellence is finally over. It was like centuries! :P

Yesterday, I was assistant to the judges for the entire day. Sat there, chitchatted with Shab, and kept on getting up to give Judges Forms to the honorable judges. It was a really simple job, but it kept me occupied. It ended before lunch, so after lunch I did some work and then went with Zo to Melissa's. I will repeat again, her house is like a hotel okayy. Luxuryy. :)

Come to think of it, I don't understand why everyone always thinks I'm always with my sister. Like, on that Wednesday, I wasn't with my sis in 1U and Gilbert goes, "eh, where's your sis?" Geez, I don't have to be with her all the time you know. Yea, so I'll state it out loud, I had freedom without her at Melissa's cause she went to Kamdar with Jon, Wee, and Isaak John after school.

So, by the time I came back home, it was like 5.30pm and my sister wanted help with costumes. So I had to dress myself up for a trillion times in my skirt and cut cloth for her, etc. We did that till dinner, and after dinner we had to go grocery shopping with the parents. Literally, my day was really occupied.

And today was, scary. I've been having the cough lately, and I was so sure that I was going to cough during my duet with Raquel. The nervosity was killing. Raquel got a fever right before lunch, and we had to perform right after lunch. Guess what? I didn't cough, but I could hear my voice shake.

As for the chorale we practiced for like crazy, it went quite okay, I think. I think it would of been better if we each had a mic, but there wasn't enough, so it probably was hard to hear the harmony, echo, and the boys. But, I'm really glad it's over with, cause I've had enough practices for a long time. :)

I didn't take any pics, but anyways..

Today's also a very special day. Someone just turned 14. Woo! Must I repeat, I love that number. :D

A very blessed birthday, Matthew didi.

Yeahp, this my super duper wonderful younger brother of mine. ahaha. I know, he really is older than me, but I wanted a younger brother, not a older one (cause I already got a super duper great one) so therefore, we reversed it, and I'm older. hahah. After all, I'm sure you'll all say I act older than him, yea? :P

Well, let's see. When I first became his sister, he wasn't so daring. ahaha. As in, we talked, hung out, but it was so formally, it was kinda freaky? hahah. I mean, you wouldn't reconize the same Matthew now. He is such a younger brother. Just like a real one. And what more, he isn't scared to annoy me. Like he's constantly annoying me by contridicting what I say, repeating words. Guess what's the latest? He tapped me with a yardstick, and I turned the wrong way to look and he was laughing. And he gets people to poke me for him.

I could go on, but it would all come up to this. He's just the Matthew that we all love. Thanks for being the person who you are, yea? (:

Luvs! =)

oh, and yes. My big brother rocks. :D

When you graduate I don't even know how I'm going to survive. I bet I'll cry like crazy, maybe not in front of you, and I'll hug you a billion times. Who's going to be there for me when I'm pissed, and to defend me from my sis? Who's going to be there to constantly ask whether I'm okay when I'm sick or sad? Who's going to be there when I need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to hug. Jon, no one can ever replace you. Love you.

Yep, both my brothers rock. (:

EDIT 

Happy birthday Natalie Zoe! (:

I miss the cute you. You're growing up too fast. :P

a verry boring day

aww, Chorch I didn't mean it. Of courseee I don't roll my eyes at you cause your annoying. Plus, everyone knows I'm dramatic. heh. =)

'Nways, if you don't know anything else about my Chorch other than my terrible description of him *winks* he is much better than that. So don't get the wrong ideas. Plus, I luv his huggies. =D

At least I know he checks my blog often. =P
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Oh and a little note to Shab.. of courseee I'll miss ya darhling. As if I wouldn't. I'll miss going to the library and screaming HI to you. I'll miss your wonderful hugs. I'll miss talking to you and listening to your interesting talk. eheheh. And lastly, thanks for always caring about my feelings. I love ya! <3 muah.

Why did you have to go?
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I almost forgot! It's someone's birthday today..

Happy Birthday Miss Catherine!

Thanks for being such a great supervisor to all of us. Thanks for teaching us more about God. Continue to grow in him and follow him all the days of your life. God Bless ya!
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Oh and guess whatty? I'm almost finished Math 810! Pretty soon I'll be in 9th grade. Yesie! heh. And guess what? I was capable of helping Naomi in her Language Arts. hah. I was once higher than her till she beat me. =/

And check out the "credits" in the sidebar. Isn't it so cool. I have become a blogskin contributer! Check out my blogskin page for more of my templates. =)
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I'm so bored. Why does there have to be vacation?

the whole world is rejoicing!!!

I have finally had success!! Well, let's just say a lot of us have had success. Cause we have finally convinced Mr. Jonathan Daniel Roberts to get a blog!! woot...

Shabeta's blog was "so called" publicizing it. However, once I write it in my extremely well known and well read blog, the whole world will know in a matter of days. Trust me, I am positive. My site meter tells me that I have an average of 17 visits per day. How cool!!! ahaha..

So to my so fabulous readers, I request you all to check out his blog. And if he doesn't update soon enough for you, then bombard his cbox (like Soph said). Imagine it, Roberts' is gonna have to write in a cbox. Gosh!!! Just imagine. lolz.

One gone, one more to go. Mr. Isaac Thong, here I come...

dreamer's day...

My favorite saying when I change my template is...

I luv my new template. ahaha.

In fact, I love all my new templates but can never stick to one.
Get used to a ever changing blog.
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Anyway, today is someone's special day. However, he's spending it in GY camp. I can imagine all the fun. Wish I could go. muahaha. But if I went, I wouldn't have been able to write this post. So be glad that I'm at home with internet. weee...

Back to the point. Even if he'll only read this when he comes back I still should write it on his birthday. At least then he'll know I remembered. ahaha.

So Happy Birthday Roberts.

Let's describe this guy. He's fun, hyper active, can keep you extremely entertained (unlike some people). He's totally hugable. Totally wonderful. Well, wonderful as a brother. Sometimes, he makes mistakes. ahem ahem. But what human doesn't?

That's why we love him. That's why we care to wish you happy birthday. God bless ya!

Back to Reality...

Take a deep breath and breathe. What a day!! excuse me, don't ask question. ahaha..

Anyway, if I didn't tell you all, I'll be gone during the later half of this month. Off to Cambodia to serve the lame and the sick during Christmas season. Okay, it sounds lame for a Christmas but the ill should also have funn =) Yep, I'm gonna live in the same house as HIV/AIDS invalids. Pray for me ;)

But I'm gonna miss a few birthdays. bummers. So here's a post to wish the December babies Happy Birthday. Just in case I can't access to the Internet in Cambodia. If I can, I'll remember to wish you a wonder-filled birthday. ahaha.

9th. Jon Roberts. My big lovable and hug-able brother. In fact, my only brother. ehehe. My sister refers him as "your brother" to me. ahaha. Have a grand birthday...

15th. Chanelle. The most joyful and always and forever happy girl alive!! She is so fun to talk to and her joyfulness and poserish-ness makes everyone laugh. That's a good thing. I love you...

26th. Tommy. One day after Christmas. ahaha.. And he's already counting the days. Anyway, a super friend and a great brother. Say he was my brother. lol..

30th. Shabeta. (middle) I love hanging out with her. It means funness and don't need to tell me poserish pictures. Weee!! High five poser. If you didn't know, I happen to be a grand poser. So is she.

If you didn't happen to know, she came to our house yesterday. We had great fun entertaining ourselves. Who said girls couldn't entertain themselves? ahem. ahem.

Happy Birthday ya all wonder-filled people.

Isaac Thong is back. (the whole world is rejoicing, at least Malaysia :P)

... yet I don't dare.

oh bummers. Seriously stressful these days. I don't blame anyone for this stress. I mean right, we do have to practice for Award's Night. It's 6 days away. That means soon. Time goes fast you know.

Okay, so let's see. Yesterday we went to Klang. It was rather fun on the trip there. Mr. Kelvin Wong insisted to come and sit in the second row. Appearantly it was too squishy in the back row cause of Ralf. (and he's such a small size) To think, we were more squashed in the second row. But the wonderful part about sitting beside Kelvin is that I get to listen to music from his phone. Instead from the irritating radio. Cool part was when Shabeta called, I could hear everything she said.

There at Klang was one word. Stress. Like all the mics messed up and we had to put all the costumes on. In the end, we only practise twice. what a bummer.

And today? Practice again. This time in the main sanctuary. It was so funny at the beginning. I started working and Jon and Fai came to sit by me. And Fai was like, "Aiyo Hazel. This is a sanctuary not a center." With Jon repeating everything Fai said. loll

Today's practice was okay. I mean it felt more successful. If you know what I mean. Cause we knew where to get out mics from. At least this time it when faster.

And chapel was cool. I can't exactly comment about the worship cause I was singing. But it the music sounded nice though. ahahah. And as for the activity? Fun. Fun. Half cause I knew already. Some people didn't though. Paul lyn's hands were shaking. And Paul Mae, well, let's just say she was scared stiff. ahahaha. Someone mistaken that I was crying. LOL..
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And as for the title of this post? oh geesh. I so wanna do it yet I so don't. Wish someone (AKA JONATHAN DANIEL ROBERTS) would come online. He is pro in his advice. ahahah.

Friends

Half the time, we take our friends for granted. Only when troubles come do we realize how much they mean to us. They never forsake you even when you've forsaken them. And they cheer you up when your down. That's why I love you guys so much.

And today, many things troubled me. I got myself in a big mess too. And something that's been happening for months, I finally got it to stop. That was a big weight lifted off my chest. And by stopping it, I relieved two other people. We shouldn't be forced to do something we just don't want to do. Or get into something when we didn't even do anything.

So I just wanna say thank you. Thanks Shabeta and Sarah for just listening. And thanks my big brother, even if you're bald, for cheering me up and making lame jokes. And thanks Emily and Paul Mae for forgiving me. And Tommy for just acting yourself. (And helping me in LA) Yea, it's embarrassing, he's 12 and ahead of me in like 4 subjects! Oh well, you shall never beat my math!

So overall, today was quite an interesting day. I learned a lot. And I also solved many problems. Yea!! I feel great! *Hugs*

Of FSC3, hair cuts, today, and spam mail

FCS3 was super duper fun. I enjoyed myself totally. Not to the extend of my glowing shirt. My glow stick cracked and all the filling splattered all over my shirt. When I went into the dark, my shirt was glowing. Everyone said it was cool, I did not agree.

I got an email from sarah ong. It was so funny! (for everyone's info: sarah ong was from GRC about 5 years ago. She knows Paul lyn, Beeps, and Roberts) Her P.S. in the email was so funny!

P.S: i also saw jonathan roberts!!!
he's bald!!!!!
hahahahhahahahhaa=D

LOL! I replied: "Yea I got freaked out on that night too!" Yea, seriously wei. I got super freaked out even if I was warned. When I saw him yesterday I went, "Oh my gosh" and nothing else. lalala
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Speaking of people, I really enjoyed myself at school today. Finally got to see my wonderful buddies again. Well, the ones I didn't see yesterday. Except I didn't get to see Sarah. *sob* I miss you Sarah! Yea it was wonderful seeing everyone again. I got homesick in Camerons...

And we got this talking about how important it is to practice for Award's Night. To think that there's only one more week of practice. Yea, I so totally agree with Soph. high five It's so hard to concentrate when everyone's laughing away. oh bummers...
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About concentrating... It takes up so much time deleting all this spam mail in my email account. I don't even know how some nonsense person by the name of "Lula M. Fink" How annoying are these stupid emails. I get super annoyed...
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Note of Encouragement: You guys can do it! (award's night) Practice makes perfect!
And one more thing: You can never lose friends. They're always in your heart...

I Miss Roberts!

Man! Something is totally missing in this school for the whole entire week! Like it's not alive anymore! Dead! Come back soon Roberts! There's no one to cheer me and Shabi up! It's no longer fun in the school without you. And, plus, there's new people this week and you weren't there to be friendly! hehe...

And, no one to beat me in checkers! keke...

or to spray something into my hair so that it itches for days!

and to help me in my 806 Math book!

what a bummer!

I miss you Jon! all I know is that you sure are a great friend!!

See ya on Monday!

**Person #13*** (Jon Roberts)

(Note to everyone...patience...your post is coming soon)

**Person #13**
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Jon Roberts
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I was reminded this morning of a wonderful quote. 'Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.' So Roberts, you're a lucky guy, cause I'm mad at you and I'm still appreciating you. Cause you first appreciated me...

Well, this guy is a great friend, and only a friend. If there was such a sport called the most friendly person, he would surely win a gold medal. Truly! He is such a friendly person and really cares for people. Extremely friendly and caring. You should get a medal...

Anyway, thanks for being my friend, and caring when I was sad. Continue to be as friendly as you are. God bless ya! :)