All of my dreams are a heartbeat away.

Welcome to the very dead blog of mine. :P I know this is surprising, but there's nothing to blog about. I wanted to write that closing of the year sorta post a long time agom never got down to it, and I still can't believe the year's gone so fast. It seemed like yesterday when I was writing my end of the year post for last year.

Nway, I'll write that post soon, in a few days. I can't believe it'll be next year... like in 3 days? :\ Aggh. Vacation has went awfully too fast, and I definitely want more of it. =) Don't want to go back to school. Muahah.

Currently; Downloading brushes. :D I know I'm being ulber random, hahah. But chun okay. I like my sparkling and stars brushes. wakaka. :)

It freaky, but I feel like my whole self is changing, and what I thought was me isn't so anymore. Other than my love for art, especially graphic designing. Like, I no longer love swimming, I have a tiny phobia of swings now - I have no idea whether its cause of the fall, but I haven't swung ever since - I don't even blog that often anymore, and I don't want school to start, don't eat as much as I used too... but somehow, it's like I'm still ME. :)

And I guess... I discovered that finding the real you isn't about your hobbies, your fears, the habits you have. It's something wayyy deeper, and harder to describe. Who knows why I meditate so often these days..

Maybe it's cause I'm turning Bittersweet 15 next year. :D
Eek, that is just plain freaky cause it was like yesterday when I was 13.

Well, before I ciao. A very belated birthday to Brian Yeap and Tommy Wong. The Christmas and Boxing Day boys respectively. Hope you had a great one. (:

Jingle bells in a bus

Just a shout out...

Berry Christmas!

What was Christmas in Cambodia like? An extremely interesting one. What did I do? Sit in a bus ride that lasted for 10 hours. Why? Cause I was in this remote highland Cambodia called takes hours just get we set 22nd of december came back 10 hour bus ride on Christmas other quite an unusual had great fun in and gotta open my presents a day earlier than anyone never ever guess i'll tell you but what about it later. It was suppose to be cold but the sun was as hot as... now. ahahaha. Back to the subject, what did I do??

23rd and 24th of December

Yaklom Lake. It was so beautiful. And the water's temperature was... perfect. It was so fun to swim in. And deep. I mean, don't even ask how deep. I have no idea. I just know that I couldn't touch the floor even if I jumped.

Waterfalls. We visited tons. And each one was so beautiful. One of them we could get behind the waterfall. How cool is that? And we swam in one. The current almost pulled me away. lalala..

Norton House. That was the place we ate lunch in for two days. And wonderful food they served too. Delicious western food which I missed so much! =p Pork chops. Grilled chicken breast. Swedish meatballs. Yum. Yum.

And finally. Opening presents on Christmas eve!! And guess what I got??

a HANDPHONE!! woot. anyways, I don't have a SIM card yet. I will get one when I get back to Malaysia. But, it is a shared phone. pity. Still a phone the same. And I'll tell you guys my number when I know it myself. lalala..

Christmas day was nothing much. Yet it was still Christmas.
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Lastly, next birthday boy. Yesterday was Jesus, today is Tommy Bommy. So..

Happy Birthday!

Description of this boy. I so agree with Zoe and Paullyn. He can be ultra annoying. Boys in general are. So being annoying is just being a boy. Other than him being annoying, he's just like every other boy. But then, every single boy has a special part in them. Don't ask me what Tommy's special part is cause I really have no idea. lol.
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P.S. I really can't wait to get back to Malaysia. 3 more days!! woot. And I really miss you all. Especially Paullyn, Sarah, Tommy, Beeps, and Roberts.

Back to Reality...

Take a deep breath and breathe. What a day!! excuse me, don't ask question. ahaha..

Anyway, if I didn't tell you all, I'll be gone during the later half of this month. Off to Cambodia to serve the lame and the sick during Christmas season. Okay, it sounds lame for a Christmas but the ill should also have funn =) Yep, I'm gonna live in the same house as HIV/AIDS invalids. Pray for me ;)

But I'm gonna miss a few birthdays. bummers. So here's a post to wish the December babies Happy Birthday. Just in case I can't access to the Internet in Cambodia. If I can, I'll remember to wish you a wonder-filled birthday. ahaha.

9th. Jon Roberts. My big lovable and hug-able brother. In fact, my only brother. ehehe. My sister refers him as "your brother" to me. ahaha. Have a grand birthday...

15th. Chanelle. The most joyful and always and forever happy girl alive!! She is so fun to talk to and her joyfulness and poserish-ness makes everyone laugh. That's a good thing. I love you...

26th. Tommy. One day after Christmas. ahaha.. And he's already counting the days. Anyway, a super friend and a great brother. Say he was my brother. lol..

30th. Shabeta. (middle) I love hanging out with her. It means funness and don't need to tell me poserish pictures. Weee!! High five poser. If you didn't know, I happen to be a grand poser. So is she.

If you didn't happen to know, she came to our house yesterday. We had great fun entertaining ourselves. Who said girls couldn't entertain themselves? ahem. ahem.

Happy Birthday ya all wonder-filled people.

Isaac Thong is back. (the whole world is rejoicing, at least Malaysia :P)

Friends

Half the time, we take our friends for granted. Only when troubles come do we realize how much they mean to us. They never forsake you even when you've forsaken them. And they cheer you up when your down. That's why I love you guys so much.

And today, many things troubled me. I got myself in a big mess too. And something that's been happening for months, I finally got it to stop. That was a big weight lifted off my chest. And by stopping it, I relieved two other people. We shouldn't be forced to do something we just don't want to do. Or get into something when we didn't even do anything.

So I just wanna say thank you. Thanks Shabeta and Sarah for just listening. And thanks my big brother, even if you're bald, for cheering me up and making lame jokes. And thanks Emily and Paul Mae for forgiving me. And Tommy for just acting yourself. (And helping me in LA) Yea, it's embarrassing, he's 12 and ahead of me in like 4 subjects! Oh well, you shall never beat my math!

So overall, today was quite an interesting day. I learned a lot. And I also solved many problems. Yea!! I feel great! *Hugs*

Sometimes you just have to pose!la de da

**Person #10*** (Tommy)

**Person #10**
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Tommy Bommy
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Most cheerful guy alive! I wonder if he ever gets emo or stressed. He really fun to be around, loves to irritate people, and really kind hearted also. He's smart also... and is catching up with his Math and Bible to my level! I'd better work faster! hehe... I have two competitors now! Isaac and Tommy...

Tommy, continue to be that alway happy guy you are. Shine for Christ all the days of your life. You Rock! And work faster than Isaac but not faster than me... ahaha!