two is better than one.

First of all, I wanna thank you for all my very devoted helpers with the backdrop. :D
♥ A big thankyou to Melinda my co-worker in crime. ;) Without you, my stress level would of been to extreme limits, it would be indescribable.
♥ I love my Jojo. He's so awesomely helpful and always makes sure I'm okay and no longer frustrated. And cute. I mean seriously, he is CUTE.
♥ Thanks to all my other helpers: Timothy, Raquel, Nicholas, Michael, Esther, Melissa, James, Ian, Nathaniel, Josh. I think I mentioned all. You guys are great.
♥ Thank you, Ms Cath and Ms Colleen, for buying supplies, supervising us, etc.
♥ Thank you, Jon, for being there to destress me and act stupid (WITHOUT A BRAIN) and using my paper to write that sign. ;)

Secondly, I've generated some thoughts.
☺I've realized that the stronger one's relationship with another becomes, you began to discover the bad sides of one and sometimes, you forget the good.
☺Somehow it seems that once you see the bad parts of a person, you suddenly lose all respect and love for that person and start treating him/her differently.
☺I didn't know that life would be so difficult at this age. Looking in the future leaves me feeling so insecure about bigger problems I'll face out there.
☺I really wish I could have a drastic change in my life. Like, migrate to another country, start life again. I know that if that does happen, I'll cry my eyes out, but only be reminded that I wanted it.
☺I've come to realize that some conversations and some things we often talk about is just pointless. Like, it doesn't even matter anything anymore. It must be puberty. You know, the whole process that I'm maturing and things people (who are younger than me) talk about don't interest me anymore.

And..
•I failed my very first Math test in my entire lifetime. D: 1010. So bummed, I know. I'm waiting for my sister to come home from work to get me more points.
•Been doing a ton of preparation for Award's Night and I'm not really excited about it. Backdrop, choir, and worship team.
•Movie Under the Stars is this Friday. :D You should definitely come, yes YOU. Buy tickets from Quel or Kat. Its gonna be fun.
•Zoe's birthday is tomorrow, so I shall do my awesome post for her... right below. :D
•MY BIRTHDAY! :)
--
SO, for my absolutely rad, awesome, terrific, pretty, HOT, girlfriend of mine.. this is dedicated to YOU.

A Jovial 13th Birthday to You
Welcome to teenager life. It isn't exactly smooth sailing. ;)

Thank you for being an awesome friend, little meime, partner in sharing secrets with, and everything else. I really really miss you, and I can't believe it's almost a year since you moved to Australia. School without you is dreadfully different from last time, but I survived, and I know you did too. :D I love you like I love a billion Sweedish fish and gummy bears. You are the very best.

Lots of hugs and pokes from your very loving,
Haz. :D

It seems very necessary that I blog often these days.

My Zozo is growing up! :D But, then again, my condolence. To the fullest. Welcome to teenager's torture. :P And I so don't believe you're as tall as Bee, but we shall see. :) SOON!

Well, I got to talk to her on the phone yesterday. Its been ages since I've heard her voice, like at least 3 months, maybe less, cause she used to call me. I couldn't even recognize her voice cause I wasn't sure whether it was her cousins or her. :P And no, for the thousandth time, she does not have an accent. (P/s. Everyone's been asking me that, Zoe.)

I passed that horrid French test by the lowest grade ever, but at least I passed. My teacher kept insisting that everyone had gotten 'tres bien' grades, and then I look at my results and I'm like, "Yea riiightt." It was 63% and passing mark is 50%. But, I'm glad I passed!

Tomorrow, there a futsal tornament that will occupy my whole day and make me get into a bad mood by the end of the day! But, thankfully, I escaped from playing and will be doing first aid. Tres tres bien. At least I don't have to waste my whole day chasing after a ball which I'll never get, and can seat myself in the corner, entertain myself with the camera, do some school work, and and get entertained by girl's screaming at the ball and guys showing off. What to do, we are humans. :P But I much rather prefer girls acting girls then guys showing off. :P

On the other hand, I have the most idiotic bet with Isaac, its too stupid for words. :P But what to do when guys are just plain smart. :)

I have a billion and one assignments to do, its so terribly hard to work while sitting beside Bee, but I get her to do tons and tons of work. :P She finished a Math book in one week. :) So proud of my honey bee. But, pretty soon if I don't get myself disciplined, I'm gonna start burning midnight oil. =\

I can't wait to graduate. It seems such great fun to plan your future, what college you want to go to, what to study, getting enough credits, etc. I've counted, and once I finally get out of school, I'll have 20 credits from my plain 5 subjects, 3 credits from Home Ex, Art, and Health/Health Quest, plus 2 credits from French. Thus, 25 credits. For what do I need so much?

P/s. Jon's probably on the plane at this moment. Or, back already. :) You have no idea how much I miss him. I have no idea what I shall do when he goes to college. *shakes head* ;)

WHAT'S UP? CAMP? Here I comeee. :) 4 more days.

I finally feel like me again.

I am sooo happy, I could burst! I finally get to see my adorable, awesome, amazing, beautiful, mei mei after 8 months! :D :D

My darling Zoe is coming back!

No one can ever compare to her. She is just soo rad and when she's around, I feel like the real me is finally back. Cause lately, after she's left, I've felt so.. incomplete. And now, I'll get to see her for 2 weeks. Hopefully, pretty often. :) Yes, Zoe meime?

Well, I found out about during French class yesterday, and at that time, I was just about to collapse with tiredness, frustration, stress, etc. She so totally made my day. :)

Anyway, one week of the awesome holidays is over, and now, I really want to get back to school. Hahah, pretty much because my French teacher has this impression that now, since most of us have vacation, we have to write an essay about it. Wth, I'm gonna die with stress. Well, my vacation has included...

• Lots of work. I feel like such a procrastinator if I don't do work, so I took 2 LifePAC test when I went to school on thursday. :D
• Yea, went to school on Thursday. hahaa.
• Sleepover with Sarah and Quel. It was totally awesome, we talked for 7 hours straight.
• My lips are about to burst with dryness. Its about the worst it has ever gotten, I feel so deprived of beautiful, moist lips probably cause I've never had them ever. I am so going to the doctors today cause at the state they are at, I wouldn't want to go out anywhere, everyone will just stare at my lips. Agh ugh, I've tried every sort of lip balm, and it just gets worse.
• Moviess! :D I love Fireproof. Sarah practically screamed at the most scary part and cried, like I did, but I cried more when I watched it the first time.
• I'm dreading my French test at the end of June, cause it means I won't be able to really be able to enjoy all my time with Zoe. Oh, go devastate French!
• I feel like reading Narnia all over again, but Jon has my book. D: But, at the rate he's reading it, I'm sure I'll get it back soon.
• OH! Jon's going to LA, California soon. I'm gonna miss him.

 But but but, my life is totally focused on Zoe's return man. Je t'aime.

shmily.

No one to accompany me at 8.30 in the morning.
No soul who understands when I use code. :P

No Zoe. D:

& somehow, I feel so "out" these days. See how much I love youu. :)

go ahead and try.

..see whether I care.

You guys always always come up with really friggin' dum-dum conclusions. Like I care. Think whatever, cause I know what's true. Only that matters.

Anyhows, the dreaded second farewell post. Sighs sighs. =\

Dear darhling Melissa,
I'll miss that smile the most. The positive side of anything and everything. You're encouraging words when anyone is down. I'll miss camwhoring, and chatting on MSN, doing Math with you on the floor in the corner, wakaka. (: You rock, definitely, totally, them smellin' socks off. :P I'll miss you billions and millions more. Always be thyself, can? Loves! Muax.

Dear Megan,
Can't believe that's the only pic I have with you. D: Anyway, I'll miss your hi's in the morning and on MSN. You never fail to pop up with a conversation when I'm online. Well, I'll still get those when you're in Australia, heh. :P Kepp rockin'. Love youu. :)

Oh, and Brian. All I know is that you are an adorable junior, and very well behaved. I'm sure you've got your greatness as well. Oh, and super high potential for Mr. Handsome when you grow up. Muahah. :P

Hope you guys have a great and safe trip over to wonderland and hateland at the same time. ;) I love Australia cause it's closest to America, other than England. Hate it cause it stole my Zoe. D: Sorry I can't send you off, it's a bit too late, and I'll probably fall asleep.
--
hazelchazel™ says:
haiyooo, I miss youu so much zoeee. D:
hazelchazel™ says:
school is SO not school without you
zoë says:
i miss you toooo.

You won't get me. No one will. Cause without Zoe, it's almost like half of myself is missing. Cause now, when I got theory or something, must explainto my peers. Zoe and I... would just get it without explaining. :) We'll just read each other's mind. And with a bit of no-sense numbers.

;and no one will ever replace you. and youuu, Jon. :)

omgg, rewindd the memoriess.

Zoe and I are rating boys again on MSN. Wakakaka. (: Old memoriess. Even if she's miles apart. Hahaha, we are still the very close sisters we've always been. Love youuu Zoee. :)

It won't harm you to see a little bit. (:

i love youuu.

Dearest Zoe Meime,
 I love you a billion and one Swedish fish. Thanks for all the brilliant memories you've left with me, and the more to come because we're sure to make some more on MSN. I have no idea how to even look towards next year, without you. You, and our boys code, boys rating, you and the many whispers, exchanging of phones, you and every single part that comes with yourself. Pranking boys, toothpaste, partners in crime OMG HIGH FIVE ZOEE!! :D I absolutely, totally, love you from the bottom of my heart. Please take care of yourself okay? We'll see each other one day, again. Hopefully, you've safely arrived there by now. (:

I'll never ever forget you. (:

So, I woke up at 5 to send Zoe off at the airport. Only saw her for a few minutes, but it was good enough. I still can't believe you're gone, and it's so hard to take it. :/ So, so hard, not matter how hard people made me laugh today. Thanks Raquel ( the car ride there was hilariouss!), Miss Cath, and Jon! :D I had a fabulous day, other than the part that Zoe left. Red, Green, Yellow, Blue! :)

I'm gonna miss you, or I already do. At Mackers for breakfast, Raquel and I went to wash our hands after we ate and..
Hazel Aiyo, I miss Zoe already.
Raquel Yea I know, she's my random partner.
I can't be random with anyone else.
--I can't remember Raquel NOT being random.

Well, okayyz. Ciao for now.

& so it goes.

I haven't been doing proper updating for a long time. November's held too many events, and no pictures and reviews in my blog. Are you ready? :)

November 1st : Joyce's Birthday Party;

No pictures. We did take pictures, but I don't have them with me. :O Most of the time they were swimming, so Paullyn and I accompanied each other by talking, hahaha. Cause, at that time, I still had my injury, ishhhh. OMG, I CAN SWIM AGAIN, DID I TELL YOU THAT?!! Woops, sorry. It was just so unbearable, not being able to swim at the slumber and at Joyce's party.

November 12th : Zoe and Hazel's Birthday Party;

Full of pranks, ish! hahah. But it was fun altogether. Sparkling soda, KFC (btw, why did KFC change from Kentucky Fried Chicken to Kitchen Fresh Chicken? So weirdd!), those party thingymajigs which you blow and then the paper thingy sticks out. Hahah! I blew one really close to Matthew and Gong (they were hugging each other ;P) and they got so freaked out. It was hilarious! :)

Group Photo. Lyd and Wee didn't join much.

They were stressing out about backdrop, I think? Oh, and Gilbert too.

We got this from Grace that morning. Scrumptious!

November 14th : Hazel's and Megan's Birthday!

Birthday twins! :)

November 20th : Pre-Award's Night;

As you can see, Zoe was in formal very early.

Ryan and I hated our costumes. Especially cause we couldn't walk in them! ISHHH.

November 20th : Award's Night;

So, it was worship, drama, presentations, and then Award giving. It got louder and louder as the night went on. x) haha. My girls basketball team went up to get 3rd place. For your information, there was only 3 teams. You get the point. ;P It was so awkward!

2nd price for Frisbee.

There's way more. hahaha. :)

November 21st : Party Day;

Zoee! I love you billions! :)

hahaha. We pulled Uncle Kevin down when he was crossing by. Not bad, ehh? LOL! I love you all too! Mel, don't leavee! D:

Brother #1

Brother #2 and Sister #2. :)

I love you guys! xP

Ish, RIIIIIYANNNN. :P Inside joke.

He is so totally capable of being annoyed. It's a nice thing to do too.

Well, that's about it. Don't have pictures of our outing yesterday, but hopefully I'll take a few more pictures with Zoe before she leaves. 2 or 3 more to our already 100 collection of them won't harm. :)
--
Anyway, a quick wish to Esther Lee. Happy birthday dear. You've definitely changed a lot for the better this year, and you totally deserved the most improved student award! :P Thanks for chitchatting with me during XYZ, I know we're bad. :) Keep rockin', yea!

NO PICTURE AVAILABLE.

oh, and it's Thanksgiving Day! Whooppieess! :) I miss Maine! If I was there now, today would be a day of feasting. Literally. All you do is eat. Go to people's houses are eat. It's one big long meal. Starts at noon and goes on till dinner. Oh, but the food. So delicious! Stuffing, turkey, CRANBERRY SAUCE! Omg, lovveee. :D I miss Maine sooo muchh.

2009, here I come.

Marshmellows! :D

It's gonna be a longg post, I have so much to say. :P

Let's start it off with Wednesday night. Zomg, the pain I went through. Was sleeping and dreaming about drama practice (like, gosh right.) and we kept on having to move things over the stage and everytime we did, my stomach hurt. Woke up a little later after that, around 2am, and realized that the pain wasn't just a dream, it was real. It got worse and worse, nothing went into Mr. Toilet Bowl, and I was throwing up. At 4am, I was really really in pain, was practically screaming my head off, and daddy took me to see the doctor at 4.30am. He gave me a jab, and don't ask me what else happen because I was too blur then. Hm, the jab was superbly painful trust me, but it had instant effect and I slept peacefully after that. The whole next day, I had a weak stomach, but today I'm good as new. :D

Oh, and Zoe got the same thing on Thursday daytime. It could be a virus. Who knows. The doctor said for me that my stomach was diguesting and it got tangled together, and there was a lot of gases inside. D:

Award's Night was errm, okay. I prefered last years one cause it wasn't so hetic and LOUD. hahah. But yea, I like the drama. The video. Oh, but there was emabarrassment cause cheerleading came up for awhile before the ceremony started and everyone was staring at it. Sarah, Pom, and I were in the mother's room freaking out. At least Pom and I since Sarah wasn't there.

Parteyy day! :D I still like last year. The whole school today was all cliques. Like, people dunno how to socalize or something. Raquel and I were though. Socalizing by interupting people's conversation and giving them food to eat. Muahaha.
--
Well, fun is over and I probably saw Zoe for the last time today. Sighs. Another sibling gone. Well, another sibling gone that I won't see often, or ever. First it was Jon, now it's Zoe. And I'm only left with my annoying didi. hahaha, kidding. x) It was the joke cause Zoe wanted to go talk to Matthew and I didn't, so I said, younger siblings are annoying! I think younger siblings that are blood related are, I guess. Since, according to my sis, I am. ;P

Oh, and Matthew's leaving tomorrow for Bukit Jalil for training. So practically, I'm left with my sis for 1 whole month. Well, I'll probably see Jon a bit too much lahh. hahaha. Anyway, Matthew, remember to eat a lot of fruits and vegetables and don't die cause of so much traning, and don't miss us too much, hahah. Oh, and have fun. :D

Well, I wanted to post something inspirational and plans for next year, but I'll save that for another post. (: Have a blast vacation ahead of you.

Oh, and thanks Raquella for understanding me. =)

My mei mei.

Chunted, eh? This post has been published exactly at 12am! :P

Happy Birthday Zo!

It's truth. I call her Zo, short form for Zoe - and Zoe is already so short. wakaka. :) Enjoy the pictures Zoe, and bring back those many memories! hahah, this is definitely not all cause I bet it's uncountable the number of pictures Zoe and I take together.

the famous twins of 2007 :)

Cheerleader and piano player?

Siblings! =) Zoe, I want the pic of us at the slumber!

Retarded fat faces :P

Looks like the same day right? haha, nope. The one above was in May, and this one was on DOE.

(:

To sum it all off, I still can't believe your birthday already arrived. I wish it didn't, cause I only have 2 more precious weeks with you, I honestly feel like crying. Sighs. I want you to have a totally awesome birthday today. Have fun while it last okay. If the boys do crazy things to you, let them, for once. :D Don't go all fierce and blow up on them tomorrow, save that for the drama practices. It's drama anyways. ;)

Thankyou for always being there for me, through thick and thin, through fun and sadness. I'll miss the secret sharing and boys code partner in crime. hahaha. Oh gosh, when you're in Australia, I'll have to send you pictures of the latest boy and you can help me rate him over there. MSN foreva babey. I'll definitely email you if you don't come online often! I'll miss the teasing. 5 boys, 9 boys, 10 boys, 11 boys whatever. *wink* This Zoe ahh, mine is 14 boys. :P oh and yea, 8 boys, 10 boys, sure miss you a lot! :)

Hopefully, you had a good 11th year of your life. Don't forget..

I love you, Zo. :]

munchkins

I love you ten thousand Munchkins. (:

And I'm gonna miss you as much as I miss these.

I can only imagine.

:D

Dearest Zoe, you never ever have to worry.

I will never ever forget you.

And I'm not counting the days till my birthday. :(

and more joy!

woopies. Here's the video. Taken by my sis with our cacat camera, so yea. It doesn't pick up sounds so I added the sound track to it. Enjoy!



And I changed my blog skin again. ;D
So cute riightt? teehee. Memoriess. They just flow back into your head and make you smile. *bigbigsmiles!* I'm happy. Very very happy.

and Zoe, I'm happy for you. Hopefully you won't get hurt. Just enjoy your last year in Malaysia. I'm happy for you, and your crazy(?) decision. hahaha.

Don't disappoint her, pleasee. You don't deserve it anyways.
I beg you, whatever you do, don't treat her like you treated me.
Love you Zoe! =)

why?

Ever since Silas could talk, he always had to know why. You tell him to do something, you always know the reply you'll get. "Why?" After replying his first why, he'll ask it again. Most of the times, I manage to satisfy him but sometimes I get totally lost of answers. "Just because Silas!"
--
Today brings to us a new month. I mean, dong. It's May already. Well, this morning I was thinking about what I went through during April. It's time to reflect..

Just because..

You know something. I once was just like Silas. Circumstances come and I'm sitting there wondering why, why, and why me! Yes, and only focusing on that one thing because I want to know why. But you know, I learned that I don't need to know the why of things. Firstly, cause it might hurt me more. Plus, I'm not meant to know. Secondly, because knowing the why of things is not going to change anything!

I also realized that being depressed totally sucks. Seriously. I'm not rebuking those who are 'emo' all the time, because.. Well, look. They have worst problem then I do. I'm not kidding. Once upon a time, Hazel was emo a lot of times because someone didn't talk to me for 1 day? eh. Those days, I seriously had nothing better to do. And I repeat, I have such a tiny weeny problem compared to others. There's so much more in life.

Of Teamwork

April brought something very important into many of our lives. 9 of us especially. I mean, it took up a lot of our time and all. But, it's fun and it gets us excited. I respect you all for always trying your best. And for discipline and teamwork. Man, with no adult around during practice, we could easily fool around. Indeed. But somehow there was always this tension inside of us to practice. In those practices and times we spent together, I not only learned how to cheer, make poms, and change into costumes with giggling and screaming girls behind curtains, but also to respect each one of you as someone special. Everyone counts. Without even one of you, the routine would be incomplete. There needs to be teamwork, before we can succeed.

Bye Bye

As every month comes to an end, I hate to think that it's one month closer to November. Not that I hate November, 'ello my birthday's in that month. ooh, Zoe. I will you so much, you'll never be able to tell how much. But you wanna know something? Something that keeps me going. I'll never have to say bye, cause you'll always be in my heart, dear. And even if we might not be able to see each other again, we will in heaven. :) It won't be hard to find you, you'll be the prettiest angel there, the one that looks like me.. ;D

oh, and in April I wrote my first will. hehe.

Get it into your head

Hillsong - Undignified :)

Fold. Cut. Tie. Trim. Fold. Cut. Tie. Trim. Foldcuttietrim. Green and white. Green and white. Green and white. Greenandwhite. I mean, we got that routine really suck into our head. So much.. it got jumbled up?

Yep. Us cheer squad got enough of making poms. It practically took us all day to make them. Dong! Who would of guessed that they're so hard to make. One pom took at least 1 hour to make. I mean, excluding Sarah, she was cutting up everything first and lying them all over the floor like she was drying seaweed. heh. =P It took extra longer.

So after all, when we finally finished.. we got like 1 hour to work. Like actually sit down and work. What a relief. I mean, you should of seen my hands. The green paper like makes your fingers green as well. It took like another 15 min of our precious 1 hour just to wash it off. Well, even after much scrubbing, it still hadn't come off. Grace and I were actually grateful to sit ourself down on a proper seat. hahaa!

*School bell rings* And we go practice again. Man, tiring.

Don't talk. Just get ready for a blast! =D

ooh, and random fact. Qi Sheun keeps confusing me and Zoe. He was like, "you two look alike." I mean, we stopped looking alike a long time ago. =\

missing you...

I just amaze myself when I can survive a day without someone. Well, it's been at least 2 weeks already. And to think, I'm only gonna see that someone next year.

Right now, when I think of that someone I rather feel like crying. I mean, I miss you so much. And I can't wait to see you again at the beginning of next year.

It's almost a miracle that God can make two people so close in a time being of one year. Not that our relationship was perfect all the way through. We went through many challenges and trials. And I still love you. No matter what.

(I have a feeling that some of you are thinking, "oh my gosh, is it a boy?" You guys seriously think weird things. ahaha.)

Anyway, my darling sister, I miss you terribly. I missed you at school. No Zoe going to her locker and then stopping by at my desk to say, "hi". No Zoe to come and ask me for help or call me to come see her latest experiment. No Zoe to share her food with me during break.

No Zoe. No Zoe. No Zoe. No Zoe.

Life without a Zoe is... boring

I miss you Zoe. Just wanna tell you that.

Shout Out

.live.love.laugh.dream.

what an important day it is today! Today is the day I've been looking forward to for 3 months. Yea, three months ago I couldn't wait to write a post on my blog for this day. Cause today someone special has just turned a year older. One more year older. oh lalala

So here's a little shout out for my special girl...

Happy Birthday Zoe!

Now time for some information about this special girl. She's my pet sister. Everyone knows that she and are closer than sisters. Before she and I cut-ted our hair, we looked super alike. Now we don't. what a bummer. oh well, we're still superbly close. And I love her dearly. Everyone else also loves her...

When we first meet in the testing room I thought she was extremely young and shy, quiet, etc. But I soon grew to knew her and found out the real her. Appearantly, many people in GRC haven't found out that part. It's saddening. And it's upsetting me now. But no more terrible thoughts today. It's her birthday!! So back to the topic...

Just thinking about her and how some people treat her makes me want to cry. I love you that much zoe. And when she migrates to Australia I'm gonna miss her tons. Unlike some people who gets into my nerves all the time.

So forget about what others think and remember what I think about you, Zoe. And what God thinks of you. Cause God's looking at you and thinking, "There's my Zoe. She's always ready for me." And that's the part that counts. And you really rock, Zoe! And with all my heart I wanna tell you this: I love you. And God loves you too. So rock on for him, k?

Zoe and I at Broga camp. Twin sistas!

After the haircuts. ahahaha. We still rock don't we? (forget that guy)

And this is the end of my wonderful post dedicated to Zozo. lalala
--
oh man, other than being happy for zozo, I feel down myself. Life seriously is tiring these days. And keeping my temper down is even harder. oh help me Father...

Sometimes you just have to pose!la de da

**Person #9 (Zozo)

Hehe, I guestblogged on Zoe's blog. So just click the link at the right column. But the picture is so small on her blog so I'll post it here. Remember to check out her blog though...

(*press to enlarge*)