Tuesday, May 31, 2011

always a bright side

In the last few weeks I've gone through experiences and been in situations that are definitely the type you could classify as once-in-a-lifetime. They were trying, painful, and unique. But as I look back at what has happened, I realized that there is always something to be grateful for in every circumstance. Hey, it could be worse.

Friday, May 27, 2011

My Little Ronaldo

There's those certain times when you just need to be alone for no particular reason. Well, I was having one of those moments, so I changed into shorts and a tee, plugged in my earphones, laced up my shoes, and went for a jog. I tried to clear my thoughts, to make some sense out of the jumbled mind I was currently having. Hoping that the fresh air and exercise could remove all my question and frustration.

No such luck. I finished my five rounds in record time, all the while observing the people around me. I watched parents taking their children out to play and realized that the older you grow up, the less it's about you. I realized that right now, I was in my prime stage of life when I want literally everything to center around me. I wasn't like a selfless parent, giving up her precious time for her children out of love. No, instead I was struggling with sharing the spotlight, because there was no love intertwined.

I headed to the park still trying to find answers. Stood at the top of the slide for a while, taking in the fresh air, listening to music, thinking. I observed a couple swinging, absorbed in each other. I watched a young dad come back from work and welcome his children with a big bear hug. I smiled to myself as a few little boys marked out goals with shoes and played a little game of soccer on the sidewalk.

And then, I met my little Ronaldo. I had moved to the swings and was swinging back and forth ever so slightly when Ronaldo ran up and sat on the swing beside me. He was barely 3 feet tall, clad in a Manchester United full jersey, with the Number 7 and Ronaldo etched on his back. He struggled to sit on the swing and finally, with a decisive push, plopped down into the seat. He turned to me, gave a shy little smile, and then started imitating me, swinging himself back and forth. I smiled at him, and we swung together in companionable silence. We swung together for about 5 minutes before he hopped of his seat and ran to join his brother.

I sat for a while longer, observing the little children playing together, even if they had met just two seconds ago. I watched as my little Ronaldo nearly fell, burst into tears, ran to his mommy, and then five minutes later was good as new, running around and playing. I watched as a mother pushed her son on the swing, a big smile and laughter written all over the little boy's face. I watched the innocent joy of a little boy when he found a toy car under the slide and ran to present it to his grandfather like it was the greatest treasure in the world.

And suddenly it dawned on me that maybe my little Ronaldo had taught me the greatest lesson of the day. That in those five short minutes, he'd shown me how to be innocent like a child, to enjoy every moment like there's no tomorrow. He showed me how to forgive and forget when you've had a rough day, been wounded, or nearly fallen. But lastly, sometimes it only takes a little time to make someone's day. No words said, no elaborate actions. Just, being there... being you.

So I want to thank you, little boy in your oversized red number 7 jersey, for giving me those precious moments today, and for making my day. :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


"Faith isn't grounded on emotions. It's grounded on the will. It's grounded in the act of taking up your cross and following to Lord wherever He leads, through good times and bad, through dark days and happy ones. We're not tested and tempered in good times. Our true test lies in the dark night of our despair."

said Ella in Daughter of Joy by Kathleen Morgan

Friday, May 20, 2011

Closing the Chapter

Bittersweet. They call fifteen bittersweet before you turn sweet sixteen. Why - I'm not sure. Fifteen wasn't bittersweet. Instead, what I'm feeling now, at the age of 16 (stop counting my years when I haven't reached them) is truly bittersweet. Maybe it should be reversed: sweet 15s and bittersweet 16s.

Freedom? Not really, actually. Finishing high school doesn't leave you with miles of what is known as freedom. Instead, you get thrown into the world of college: away from home, staying on your own, balancing school and work, saving every penny, worrying about what's next. No, definitely not freedom.

Confidence? Yes. Maybe not freedom, but definitely that sense of accomplishment. Like, "YES! I actually did it!" and "I'm going to college!" And that feeling, however small, that you'll make it through the next chapter of your life.

And finally, memories. The funny, the happy, the lessons learned, the tears shed. Definitely the people you met. Hopefully the impact you made. I could go on and on, but basically it's summed up in this: I love you all so very much, and thank you for all the precious memories you've given me.

Time to flip the page, however much I want to linger on the last paragraph, and close the chapter.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

snapshots of my life

I seriously owe you all a post with pictures. So, forgive the tardiness, but here comes a few pictures from a month + ago. :\
So this is an absolutely genius creation by Jello...

Easter dinner with the family and Uncle Carl :)

Resurrection Sunday. Dresses. Camwhoring.

Meet Mr. Egghead, my breakfast.
He was GOOD btw.

Field Trip to the farm.

... the picture says it all. :)

Outing with the girls on Tuesday.
We got this UH-MAZ-ING-LY cool table at Sakae Sushi.

Three teas, one coke. :)

That's all for now. Gonna go prepare for my LAST test and then I'm outta high-school. :D Feeeell the freeeedomm.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

narnia :)

Lucy [holds out her hand] Pleased to meet you Mr. Tumnus,
I'm Lucy Pevensie. [Mr. Tumnus looks at her hand curiously]
Lucy Oh, you shake it.
Mr. Tumnus Why?
Lucy I... I don't know.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Big News

I like it when I get news. Because news is like, stuff you didn't know. :)

#o1. So, I was checking my awesome changht@appstate.edu email, and I got this email saying I was accepted into the Sisterhood Experience Residential Learning Center. :) That means I'll be staying in an all-girls dorm, which has awesome facilities. I'm really glad I got in, cause that was my first preference when I applied. Pray that I get a nice roomie, who's Christian. :]

#o2. Field trip report is coming along, just swell. It's really really cool, just believe me. It's so awesome I can't tell you. Plus, I don't want people who are going on May 21 to get any ideas. I still have a ton of things to do to complete it... and should be doing those things right now instead of blogging.

#o3. Today was my last PE, and just thinking about that makes me kinda sad. :(

#o4. ... I don't have any more news? :d

Sunday, May 1, 2011

through the weekend

I can't believe it's May already. There's only 3 weeks, 15 school days, and  4 books left to go. And I'm a happy girl. :)

It's been a really eventful weekend, but what's a three-day weekend when you don't make full use of the nights of staying up late, and the mornings of sleeping in late. (Well scratch the later because I woke up at 5:30am on Saturday and 7:30 today - that can barely be considered "late".)

The Royal Wedding - I know this is so cliche of the girls to say, but HONESTLY, I love her dress. I like the Maid of Honor's dress too. The horse carriages were just divine. But other than that, the wedding was so traditional in a very British way and who doesn't kiss during your church wedding ceremony?! On another note, I am glad my wedding's not such a big thing. At least, I hope not.

Field Trip to Grace Farm - It was actually really fun, definitely not like my expectations. I think I only enjoyed it so much because we got to interact with the animals and a big plus, my team was awesome. I mean, seriously, we were all attentive and interested and stayed back the longest, while everyone else was like... eating lunch? I have really good ideas for my presentation too. :)

Soccer Training - which went wrong. By the time I got home from the field trip it was like, 4pm. And then I was starving, so I got myself duck rice. And then, it obviously didn't digest by the time I went out to play. So I got cramps halfway through, but still.

Visit to Mustard Seed - Bee, Isaac, and I went to Uncle Kevin's church today. It was good seeing Josh, Uncle Kevin, Grace, Brenda, Pastor Julian, and the rest. Love the worship there. Catching up with them at lunch was good. (Y)

Arsenal vs Manchester United - okay so if you know what a soccer maniac I am, you'll understand how badly I wanted to go watch this game. So, I had to make this ridiculous deal with my dad so he'll bring me to see it. The deal: I have to do his chores for 4 days. Anyway, so I'm watch the game tonight. :) And Luke and Noah are coming along.

If you have a sense of creativity and know Premier League history, I think you'll like this article. I think it's very well written: http://espn.go.com/sports/soccer/news/_/id/6445871/epl-royal-family

Have a great Labour Day, peeps. :)