Tuesday, July 31, 2007


What a day! I just arrived home. I've been out since 8 am in the morning till 6 pm at night. Left for school at 8am, arrived at 8:20am and worked all day. Left school around 3:15pm and rushed to the library. Then we went to pick up my dad at his office and visited my aunt's "mansion".

It's been a week since...**not saying what**. Last week at this time I was boiling angry. Not gonna say anymore...the week has gone by fine. I wish it was fine, I mean it had it's challenges. LOL! Sometimes I wonder whether I like school or not.

Oh, and yea, I missed devotions today so I have no idea who was so and so's guardian angel. Am totally disappointed. I was looking forward to finding out. Haha! Anyway, I know who was guarding me. It was like so obvious! I knew even before he gave me anything. Plus, Isaac told me! Haha! It was Roberts....

I'm dead tired. What a busy day. **yawn** sweet dreams...*hug*

Monday, July 30, 2007

bringing memories back....

(I know I blogged this picture before, but I never told you about it)

The snow in Maine is always very plentiful and very often when it's snowing I have to wrap myself up and go outside to sweep of the falling snow from my front doorsteps in order so that when it freezes, there will be no ice on the steps.
But once it's stops snowing, I get the delight of playing in the snow, while my parents shovel out the driveway. Sometimes, a friend with a snow plow will come and scoop the snow into a big pile at the side of the driveway and my sister and I will delightfully make a snow house inside the pile.

See the snow pile? My sister is dreaming while we take a break before going back to our work.

We use an ice chipper and carve out steps in the snow pile. I make a pillow for myself when we pretend sleep. My dad would help us make shelves where we store our imaginary food. During meals, we actually eat. One of us will march over to a fresh batch of snow and help ourselves. We sometimes even bring some syrup along and pour it on the snow before eating it. It's so delicious!

The best part, though, is when you're all finished playing. You're cold and numb and come dripping into the warm kitchen and drink hot chocolate! Yum! And sometimes some hot scones with sugar frosting. Oh my gosh, my stomach is rumbling....

Wishing for snow...that's what it says on my fake fireplace in my apartment. I painted this piece of foam with the words, "wishing for snow". The "fire" is burning merrily, the dog warming himself on the rug, a spark flies up and sizzles. When I stare into the "fire", memories come back....

...Wishing For Snow...

Yep, I am

Sunday, July 29, 2007


I woke up this morning extremely early. Around 4 o'clock....it was raining heavily so I woke up and I couldn't go back to sleep. I couldn't breathe, had a running nose, a sored throat and a headache. In shorter terms, I'm sick. And we ran out of tissue...how lucky! Really...

Yea, so hear I am sitting in front of the comp with my throbbing head and runny yet stuffed up nose. Yes, I feel horrid and wonder if tomorrow at school I'll be myself. My sis says I look sick. I feel sick. Very sick...

My sister's making me a pair of socks! So cool, right? She can knit socks. And she doesn't have to sew anything. She uses about 4 needles. Confusing...hehe...anyway, the person she's guarding is extremely lucky! Just wait and see what she made over the weekend...

Oh yea, that reminds me, the end of the month is this tuesday. Bible verse and tests! Shucks! I hate test, man. They're so hard and tiresome....

Gonna swim, sick or not...haha! I'm a bad girl, and I know it. You don't have to tell me. LOL! *hug* I need one badly.

Birthday Gurl

Today's someone's birthday. She's really special to me and even if I've only known her for a few months I love her and she means a lot to me.


May today be a day you'll never forget.
May happiness fill your heart today.
That no matter how many hardships you've gone through, you'll always remember that God loves you.
Let your love for God never die out.
If no one ever said this to you before, I will, I love you.
Remember that God has a purpose for you and treasure this promise in your heart forever.

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Friday, July 27, 2007

The Inside, not the Outside

And my speech and my preaching were not with persuasive words of human wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.

Thinking back to last night at CG, we broke up into pairs to pray with. I was with Catlyn. My prayer was really elaborate with tons of adjectives. Then she prayed for me. She only 9, k? Her prayer was simple yet touching and I realized that beautiful descriptive words don't matter. What is in the heart does and that's what really counts. I still remember that simple prayer a little boy at 7.7.07 prayed, "God thank you for my body parts" So simple, yet he was really thankful.

Remember devotions on Thursday? Both oranges felt the same.. They looked the same even if no one dared touch them! But when I started to peel the first orange, what was inside? Mud...it stunk, my hands stunk, everything did. But when I started to peel the second, it was clean fresh ... smelled delicious...

Everyone loves gifts, right? Gifts are nice, thoughtful, wonderful to receive. But what really touches you most? Actions, or gifts? The first one because it from the heart. It's from the inside and not the outside.

So today, just remember, the inside counts, not the outside. Descriptive words don't matter to God. Our outward appearance He doesn't see. Giving God our very best does not matter he wants our actions. He only sees out inside. He only sees your heart. He doesn't want anything else. Only your inside, not your outside.

Father, You only see my inside. You don't look at anything else. You don't care how my outward appearance looks like, you don't care how many descriptive words I use in my prayers to you. You only care for my inside, my heart. Mold me and shape me, Father. That my inside will be pure and holy when you come and look inside.

A Full Day

First of all, I passed my test which I took today! Yahoo! Thank you so much, Father, for helping me....I'm so grateful! It was hard...

Second, I really enjoyed chapel! Had a great time. Worshiped God and got touched again by His wonderful love <3!

I studied hard all day, well, kinda, other then the distractions and chapel. Got teased for no good reason so I totally ignored it. Got a gift from my guardian angel which I happen to know who...

And now I am out of words....

Love ya Father! Thanks for all you've done for me...

Oh yea, the pastor was preaching about our testimony. Maybe next time I'll share it with you...

Checkout: 6:02pm

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Mountains and Hills

Helping my friend in her work does not mean I learned nothing from it. Actually, I did.

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith
as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Nothing is impossible with God. All we need is faith. Even if it's the size of a mustard seed. Mustard seeds are extremely small. It's about the size of a typed "o". That's all we need. Just a weeny little bit of faith. We can do anything, we can even move the biggest mountain in the world.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.

If your house is built on a hill, everyone who passes can see it. The same thing is if you are saved, you are a light. And that light is on a hill. Everyone will see. Everyone will notice. But what happens if you start doing wrong things. Everyone will also see. And they will notice.

Get ready...you can do the impossible. Everyone is watching. All we have to do is have faith and win the world for Christ!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Strawberry Gurls!

Everything Matters to God

Did you ever felt like no one really cared about what you were talking about, what you were eating, what you were wearing, etc. Have you ever had the feeling that nothing about me matters? Did you forget that God created you and I in His image? He didn't make you by mistake. He made every single thing about you for a purpose. He knows everything that has happened or will happen and he did it all for a purpose. Do you remember the story I wrote? Read it again by finding the post on May 29 in my blog archive. Even if it isn't true, things like that can happen...

Sometimes we feel down because it seems likes it always us who has to do the painful stuff, not the "other person" who gets all the fun. Lots of times it seemed like I was doing all the hard work and getting no credit. Instead someone else was. But I learned that Jesus did all the hard work, all the painful stuff, and didn't get praise, instead He got bitterness. Plus, after all, I like background work, and since I do, I should be satisfied that I am really doing background work since no one spotted me doing it! Serving the Lord is a hard task but I'm ready to do it...

Beeps, don't give up. I still love ya. And you have lots of friends to depend on. *hugz* Remember, everything matters to God.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Wishing for a...


It’s been quite a day! Fine in the morning, stayed fine till after lunch. I was extremely angry from 3pm to 4:30pm and finally I’ve calmed down and decided that being angry isn’t going to help anything.

I got this crazy, pathetic, whatever you want to call it, test coming up. And I sure don’t want to study for it. Is 805 Bible LPT test hard? If you did the book before comment please. I know you all are very smart…

More pictures of camp are coming soon. And I am going to scan some really nice old pictures of my sis and I picking strawberries! There’s one of me eating a strawberry and it looks so juicy and red! YUM…

I didn’t do devotions today after all. I am going to on Thursday. Man, I am scared. Thank goodness I am only demonstrating…no talking included…

Someone, I need a hug…why did this all have to happen…


“Life is like a curvy road, you don’t know what you will meet around the next bend” I don’t know what will happen tomorrow…all I know is that God is with me all the time…I’m ready as can be.

He leadeth me, He leadeth me,
By His own hand He leadeth me;
His faithful follower I would be,
For by His hand He leadeth me.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Fun...(pics are up)

Was camp fun? Okay, admit it, it ROCKED! It was so fun to ride the flying fox, even if it was scary climbing to 60 stairs and sitting at the edge. Do you realize it's not a proper seat, you're hanging! I'll post the pics at the end of this...so you can see how scary it is. It's very scary.

Friday, July 20

We went to school extremely early...everyone seemed to come early on that day. We were all excited and hyper-very-a bit too much...and got late for school. Anyway, the day finally passed. And then we started the long process of waiting for the bus... and a few other things happened...I don't need to mention...if you know, you know, if you don't, then too bad...

The bus finally arrived. I bet by the time we got on the bus, the people in the vans already arrived! So sad! I almost got car sick cause the trip took about 1 hour and a half! Wasn't it a big relief to get out...and very exciting too! So fun to explore...

No electricity and water. It was extremely hot and
sticky. Can you imagine trying to cook dinner without electricity and water? I really respect the Alpha team cause they really did a great job. And washed up all the dishes! Great Job!

After dinner we all got ready for the night jungle walk. We went to zone B and sat down on all those ants and had briefing. Then we had to practice a cheer for our team. We were about to start when it started to drizzle. So all of us trooped into the mass hall and had a talk and praised the LORD! It was such a wonderful time. Just to feel His presence. Surrounding us. God is good! If we went to the jungle walk this wouldn't have happened...I so glad it did happen...

Slept late that night. Went into our dorm and hanged out. Benut and Raquel were going hyper and acting. Isaac called and was being sick again. We just had a great time. I feared I was gonna fall off my bunk but I didn't. Praise God!

Saturday, July 21

Woke up at 7:15. Was so thirsty but too lazy to get down my bunk to get water. Finally I did cause I heard a lot of noises outside. Anyway, I changed and found out from shabi that something happen. Anyway, I really only want to mention the positive things. It was a kinda stressful day because of that incident. It got resolved though. We went to have breakfast and then flying fox briefing and then my team, Gama, and Shabi as the leader, went to the Flying Fox. Man, was I scared. Dead scared. I waited till the second last then finally ventured up. Climbing the steps was so hard! I didn't count I just looked straight ahead. But sitting on the edge was so scary! OMG! I am so light that I couldn't even touch the edge. Anyway, once I was gliding down and after I had screamed for a few seconds, I really decided that it was fun. Looking down at the pond was so beautiful. And peaceful. And since I'm so light, I didn't fly like the others. Which is a relief...

Pond rafting after lunch was really fun. Our raft might of not lasted when we pulled in out of the water but it lasted for two rounds since we had to go back. And it doesn't matter if we didn't win, if our raft didn't last...as long as we learned how to work together. I admire the team whose raft broke the minute it was in the water and they had to swim because they still worked together and brought all the pieces with them and still won. You guys still did a great job...

We decided to do the night jungle walk that night but it was canceled because of the weather. Instead we had a time a fellowship. And then Beeps, Zozo, Melinda, and I went
outside and took pictures! Real nice ones! I'll have to get them from Benut first. And then I'll post them. We then went to the dorm and took more pics. Then when it was just all 4 of us alone, except for my sis who was sleeping, we talked gurly chat. Using secret code too. It was really fun. I can't believe Beeps is turning into a girl!

Sunday, July 22

The last day. And today. Anyway, I was waken up by Bee bee. Well, the I hitched up into Zoe's bed and eavesdropped on my sis and Beeps. LOL! Sometimes it was too hard not to laugh!

We had free time after breakfast and sat at the mass hall most of the time and played truth or dare. Actually, I mean, truth or truth. The questions were so dump! First of all, Robert's was half dead. It seemed like that anyway. And that's probably why he asked stupid questions. And then Sarah, asked what type of underwear we wear! OMG! Who cares! Anyway, we had fun and then hanged out till lunch time.

After lunch was awards time. 3rd place was BETA. They did a great job! 2nd place was SIGMA. I am so proud of them. They really did a good job and worked together and really deserved the price! And 1st place? ALPHA! Such a wonderful group of leaders for the upcoming Youth Rally...

Yes, I'll conclude that the camp truly did ROCK and I had a lot of fun. Even if the first day was quite stressful for my team, and that night was a night of fun for the girls, but a night of distress for the boys, and on Saturday it was a day of, hmm, tests, I really am glad I went and I learned a lot. I learned to be brave and overcome my fears. To be patient and to calm down and "chill" when things seem to go wrong. I realized that God is the Light and when we have Him as our light the world will seem so dark. I learned that even if we did have a lot of failures and stressful times, we should just remember the good times. Right?

Picture...coming soon...visit www.picasaweb.google.com/mathmerized to see some. More coming up later...

taa daa! Here they are...
Hanging Out!
Us Girls!
Happy FacesBright and Awake!Cheese
Sistas! Don't we look alike?
Flying fox is so scary...
Getting off is such a relief!
Hang on tight!

Thursday, July 19, 2007


Packing is the fun part...unpacking isn't. Right? Cause you pack...full of excitement of what's gonna happen...but you unpack after all the fun is over...dear me...I don't want to think about unpacking...no way...let's make camp last it's very longest!

Anyway, I am doing devotions next Tuesday! NO! I sure am scared! Anyway, it's about oranges...lol! It's gonna be cool! Make sure you guys arrive early...

So...I'm off to pack and get ready. I don't know whether to be excited or not! It's such a horrid feeling to get dirty...but then so wonderful to be away from parents! No offense, parents out there who read my blog! We'll be all safe and sound. Especially since MOST of us have guardian angels. Actually, we all do...I'm talking about the human ones. Yea, but then, our REAL guardian angels will be watching as well as the best one...who's GOD! He's the best guadian angel we should ever hope for!

Gonna miss all those who aren't coming! Plus I'll miss blogging for 3 days! Hope I can survive! LOL! I better do. Computer is not my god. Jesus is! And I'm gonna meet Him at the camp!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

My mind is spinning...everything in front of me becoming a blur. I look dizzy. And very blur. I feel like pressing all the keys on the keyboard at once and going crazy. I don't feel like doing anything just listen to music. I feel sick. Don't do anything, my mind pleads with me. But I can't just be lazy. I got this test to take and one to study for...

Today dragged on like any normal day. We were assigned new guardian angels. I am so longing to know who mine is... anyway, I was depressed the whole day. And I don't know why...I need listen to the song 'You'...it really helped last night. Tomorrow's gym. I need to forget the future and go forward. My God cares! Everything is so different when He's around.

Push forward. Fight. Win the battle. I am not going to let the devil win. I will study hard and fight this headache. I will honor my Lord and Saviour. 'by His strips I am healed' I am healed.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Inner, not outer

Got this from Grace's blog...

I Peter 3:3-5

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.

beauty in the inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit...it is a great worth in God's sight

God, I want inner beauty and not outer beauty. Mold me and shape me to become your choosen vessel. Make me beautiful in the inside. Remind me, oh Lord, that man look at the outer appearance, but You look into the heart...


I am not crazy, pathetic, or whatever you want to call me. In shorter terms, I'm bored and don't know what to write about. The heavy rain this afternoon is the best topic I can think of. You don't have to read this if you don't want to...I predict that you all are not weather fans. As a matter of fact, neither am I...

It just is so funny, to me, that the rain here is so different than in America. It's behavior in particular. In Maine, it would rain, not as hard as it does here, and it doesn't stop as suddenly either. It continues to drizzle for the whole day. Over here, it suddenly starts pouring heavily and then, as suddenly as it began, it ends. Which is sometimes very surprising for me, even if I have lived here for almost 2 years already.

Well, I'm tired about this subject. I bet you are too! LOL! Changing subject...


School today..hmm, let's see, rating it between 1 to 10 with 10 the best and 1 the worst, I'll say it was 7. Quite good. I mean, it went okay... I am upset cause I passed my LA test. I did not make a typo mistake. It's because my spelling is rather horrid! It's always been that way. My sister is great at spelling. She went to a spelling competition against a whole lot of US states and I got to go along! Haha...she didn't win but then it takes a while to get into the competition. She has to win against our school, then the Maine schools, then the New England states schools, if I'm not mistaken. A lot of studying. Really hard words...like jurisdiction. But that's quite average...


I have this song stuck in my head. I bet you guys are tired of me and my songs. Don't have to read, I just need to type it out...

Oceans will part

If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I’m blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus 1:
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Verse 2:
Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I’ll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus 2:
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Open my eyes Father
I need to see the works of Your hands

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Getting through last week & the week ahead

Last week was not a dream, and it did have a few clouds in the sky. It did not go as nearly as well as my sis' did, but I'm thankful God brought me through it all. At least I had something to look forward to, chapel, and Celine's birthday party! And didn't I have fun! Want to share with you how my week went and how, with God's help, I overcomed the trials...
  • Language Art test-I sure do hate taking test-they make me all nervous! I studied hard and prayed a lot for God's help, and with his help I took the test. I got 84% which isn't great, but at least I passed...
  • My bottle bursting in my backpack-that sure was a disaster, and very embarrassing too! I spent the whole afternoon blow drying my books and reading and studying at the same time.
Thanks to all my friends and God I passed that week. Getting pass a whole new week is going to be big challenge...I have so many more test to take. A bible and a math test...oh I am so scaried. I don't want to face the fact that tomorrow I have to go to school and study. I am so tired and don't have any energy right now. But I am looking forward to seeing all my friends again. And feeling needed and wanted. And meeting God again in the morning devotions and in chapel. And just looking forward to a weekend of fun at BROGA. And I'm ready...

Cause God's with me...and I so glad because of that.

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I want to stand eternity with you

I now that Your near
Everthing is different
Everything so different
I know I'm not the same
My life is changed
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you

Sunday, a day of rest...

Oh my gosh! I am what you called T-I-R-E-D! No, I did not stay up late last night. I woke up early this morning. That's why...am I gonna be able to wake up tomorrow? Shucks...school again! I have to admit, before, when I wasn't going to GRC I was homeschooling at home, that having no routine was bad for me. It made me lazy. I could wake up anytime and if I wasn't able to start school by 9 it wasn't a bit deal. And it was boring with no one around except my sister. Sometimes I wish I could escape from her sometimes, no offense che. I have to do everything with her, and have to go everywhere with her. Literally, I can't go anywhere without her. She can go anywhere without me though. I still love her though. Think, if I don't have her than my parents would be even more protective of me. And then I won't be able to go anywhere! That would be horrid!

Anyway, I am quite excited for BROGA camp...okay, I am not wild about getting muddy and dirty. My poor clothes! It's gonna be quite an adventure...if you are coming post a comment or write in the shoutbox.

Celine's birthday was a BLAST! I pity those who didn't come. Haha, just kidding...it was okay. It was okay at the beginning, but frightfully hot. Okay, I know, I sound like a British saying frightfully...read to many Enid Blyton books! It sure was a relief to get into the pool, even if Shabi pushed me in!!! I was babysitting this cute little 6 year old with Bee bee. Bee bee is such a good mother! Haha! It was kinda fun, even though I was shivering cold then. So I passed Emily, the 6 year girl, to Bee bee's trusted care! LOL! Anyway, dinner was really good! The mashed potatoes were the BEST! Yummy!

Okay, I have to face it. School tomorrow. See you guys there! Don't mind me if I'm cranky. Shouldn't be though, after all, Sunday is a day of rest...

Friday, July 13, 2007

Darling Celine

Today is SOMEONE'S birthday PARTY!

Happy Birthday Celine! (Her real birthday's on July 17th)

Love you sweetie

Your smile always brightens me up...and when you talk it somehow cheers up the whole room. (This is extremely embarrassing for her) You're so cute gurl! And your personality is such a loving and kind, gentle and caring one. That's why you get along so well with people, even if they are about 7 years apart. No kidding, really, people who are 15 are coming to her birthday party and she's 8! There's a gap of 5 years between me and her but I treat her as a friend and not as a friend's sister. Celinie...have a great day today, and I CAN"T wait till 4! Love you and God does too...*hug*
Yesterday chapel rocked! I usually say that, I know, but it really does. Sarah sings really nice and so does Melinda! You guys did a fantastic job! Just remember that you're not singing in a performance but for the LORD!

After the preaching, there was a time when we just sat silently and checked our hearts. Someone started crying and so I went over there to comfort her. I remember when I used to cry and when others comforted me...now I'm ready to comfort others. Isn't that so wonderful. God is so GREAT! Thank you Jesus! We prayed for her and hugged her and she was just crying nonstop. When chapel ended Brenda took her down and then as I went up the ramp I went to check on her a gave her a hug. I have to admit that while I was comforting her I also felt like crying. But God is so GOOD! Really GOOD!

Somebody! I need a hug! It seems like ages since I've had one. Hug?


Thursday, July 12, 2007

Guardian Angels


Was suppose to be Sarah's and Paul lyn's turn to share...but they weren't ready...I am waiting for you guys to do it next Tuesday. Don't delay it anymore!

Today, for devotions, we were assigned to play the game guardian angel. We put all our names in a cup and picked a paper out. I got...lol...can't tell. I have no idea what to do! So if you guys have any ideas please comment.

BM Class

What a racket I had this morning after break! I went into the library and ask Shabi to help me translate my essay into BM. They had all forgotten about it! SO everyone in there quickly grab a piece of paper and start writing. Smart me (LOL) brought in my Math book and worked on that while to rest tried to concentrate on their BM. It was certainly hard to concentrate! People are so distracting some times...don't want to mention NAMES!
Anyway, I didn't get to post this up yesterday cause I was half way finished and then had to go...wanna wish you a BLESSED BELATED BIRTHDAY DAWN! Sorry I didn't get this up yesterday else it wouldn't be belated. LOL! I can't believe you're so OLD! Haha, just kidding.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

All About Today...


Gym as usual. Was extremely wet and I was in a bad mood...did not want to go. We played dodge ball which is a bit boring if you're not playing, and I wasn't except at the end. However, I just stood there, and no body aimed at me. I am good at dodge ball because of that! If you think being good at dodge ball means aiming well, I am the worst probably. But then it is dodge ball and I do dodge well.

Anyway, it was extremely hot just standing there so after all I did get sweaty. We came back and had our break and changed. Then worked. After all, that's what school is for. Worked until lunch. Worked after lunch. Worked all alone cause almost everyone else went for BM class. And, that reminds me, opps! I forgot about my BM homework...

Man! And I forgot also that I have a test coming up tomorrow or on Friday! Shucks! I do hate test, oh well, get done and over with it.

And, I have to say, today wouldn't had been that a great day if someone didn't make my day at the end of school. And I do hate my nickname, tian ai. Oh well, I will ignore it next time...

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

a Day, I might NEVER forget

"we rise, fight the battle, get beaten, and rise again"

A quote from my old history book, leaning about the Revolutionary War. And some commander wrote this quote...I
don't remember who...anyway...

You know those big things like balloons? With
some sort of weight at the bottom. And then you like punch them and they keep on going up because of the weight at the bottom? Well, I feel like that. Each day I rise, get through the day, with my ups and downs, and get beaten, and then rise again. Just like that balloon thingy and the quote above. With lots of memories swarming my head. Hard to concentrate when I'm thinking about America. I don;t know why this week and the last I've been thinking about America so much. Maybe because Independence Day just passed?

And then this American song came through my head during dinner. Just read the lyrics even if you don't know the melody and you can ask me to sing it tomorrow, IF I feel like it...it's called God B
less America

While the storm clouds gather far across the sea,

Let us swear allegiance to a land that's free,
Let us all be grateful for a land so fair,
As we raise our voices in a solemn prayer.

God Bless America.
Land that I love
Stand beside her, and guide her
Thru the night with a light from above.
From the mountains, to the prairies,
To the oceans, white with foam
God bless America
My home sweet home.

I don't remember how to sign the verse but I remember the chorus...also love the anthem and would like to share it with you...

Oh, say, can you see, by the dawn's early light,
What so proudly we hail'd at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars, thro' the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watch'd, were so gallantly streaming?
And the rockets' red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof thro' the night that our flag was still there.
O say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

There's a ton more of verses but the first is the most commonly sung. Don't I sound like a REAL American! LOL! And one more chorus of another song. There's verses but it's too long...

America! America!
God shed His grace on thee,
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!

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A Gift For You

Today's a SPECIAL day! It's Paul Mae and Bee bee's birthday!

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That's her, the one with the number 801. Both pics are horrible cause they both don't like their picture taken...me neither! Anyway, want to tell both that you're great friends! God Bless! Love~Hazel~

Monday, July 9, 2007

When I...

When I think I either get sad or happy, angry or upset...when anyone thinks they get some sort of feeling, right? Well, I've been thinking today...and I don't know what sort of feeling I'm getting. Maybe upset, that matches the best. But upset about what? I really don't know. Sometimes, I wanna tell someone about what's going on...but i really don't know myself. Today was such a hectic day...everyone was emo! Some days are just horrible. In some ways...in some other ways good. Like today...

I was just thinking...when I die will I make a difference in the world. Will my presence be missed. Will I impact the world. I want to badly, I wanna impact the world for God and become famous for HIM alone.

Tomorrow's Bee bee's and Paul Mae's birthday. I am working on a really cool post so check it out tomorrow...don't forget!

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Amazing Grace

I wish that I had a person I could talk to really personally...and face to face. If only someone would accually take the time talk. Some people tell me that they're my friend, but then they hardly talk to me, only walk by and say hi. Sometimes I get so depressed that I cry myself to bed. Don't worry, I am a girl, and turning into a youth. Supposidly youth are emo...

Anyway, I just remembered. For BM class we have to write an essay about our best friend, or something like that...so I'm gonna have to write an essay...in BM (Bahasa Malaysia, the language in Malaysia) I love that topic...but I don't like the fact that I have to write it in BM.

Continuing...I had a very nice time at Bee bee's house. We didn't do anything much. Just hanged out in her very cosy bed with a ton of stuffed animals being squashed by her. And she got a ton of pigs...and strawberry, one of her stuffed animals, is so cute! Okay, I'm going a bit hyper...

Well, I don't know wether to look forward to school or not. I guess it makes life funner... lol...no such word. Anyway, see ya all...

Saturday, July 7, 2007


Guess what? Someone just made my day. I received two wonderful e-cards from my friend! Love you too, Becka...

Was thinking this morning about my charm bracelet...and would like to share what each charm reminds me of...

puppy-my wish for years

heart (used to have a stone in it but fell off) -it reminds me that my heart used to be in Maine and then when I moved to Malaysia it fell of, but the outline is still there, my heart still remands in Maine.

USA-still remember the times I had there-first snowstorm I'd seen, tasting strawberries

Hawaiian flower- Malaysia, I still like Malaysia, cause I've made a lot of friends...

dangling butterfly-Mrs. Desjardin, my teacher, cause she had the same charm

H-I am special and I was created for a purpose

horse-my sister, cause she gave me this charm, and of the times I had riding horses

dangling smile-reminds me to smile, cause God loves me, and I have lots of friends that are very dear!

And that's all...from now on I'm gonna wear that bracelet, so I'll remember all of you

Holes in the Fence

Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

(Most importantly the last sentence)

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails

were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out.

It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. "

A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us."


Please forgive me if I ever left a hole in your life.

my day

Hmm, I’ll call this day a distracting one…:P Before break I was helping Natalie with a story and she kept on getting distracted and destroying Roberts’ desk. It was extremely hard for me to keep from doing so. We finally finished the story after plenty of struggles with that annoying girl. Then I went to my desk and studied like crazy for my test. I took it after break and then that’s when I got distracted. I am turning into a typical student…lol…I go to the comp, wanting to draw an ear for my science. It took ages to get the comp so I gave up and go into the library. Find out that Roberts is under the table! And then go and get a book to study and draw a ear at the same time. The lights go off cause Roberts wants to read in the dark! I obviously did not let him. And then everyone comes in and we work there till lunch and the after lunch before chapel. Chapel totally rocked! The worship was great, you guys are gonna do better tomorrow, don’t worry. And we can jump tomorrow, right? I hope so! The preaching rocked to. There were so many stories. I love the preachers that give you examples and stories. Some just give you fact after fact. Giving testimonies and examples make you really understand and it helps you remember cause you remember the stories not the preaching. Then after chapel it was a bit boring…like the last couple of days after school. Cause I’m all alone. Well, not exactly…but I do feel like no one knows I’m there. Like a statue or something. Oh well, God knows I’m there. That’s all the matters…

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Mixed Feelings

Today, and two days ago, was a day of mixed feelings. At least yesterday. I had to suffer with itching hair from 3-6 because someone by the name of Roberts who was so smart to spray something into my hair...I don't even know what! Yea, so my poor hair was extremely bothersome. And today it is still itchy. But don't worry, Roberts, I won't go bald. Can you imagine me bald? And it's getting better.

Anyway, I've been extremely busy these last few days. I've been in school from 8:30am to 5:00pm both on Tuesday and Wednesday. Today was a bit better. I left school at 4:00pm. At least I have more time to study for the LPT tomorrow...*shiver* I am so scared. H & G suck...

Well, other than test and staying back after school, chapel is tomorrow! Yea! I totally LOVE chapel. And then on Saturday, there's 07.07.07. That's the date. I'm not sure what it's called. Anyway, the GRC worship team is playing. And I'll be going also. Since my sis is going. And because of...

Then there's all the birthday parties. One Sunday there's Bee Bee's birthday. See ya all there. Oh yea, today I was frozen so I borrowed her jacket. And I looked so weird! Anyway, her birthday is coming up, as well as Paul Mae's. On the same day. On that day I'll post something cool. Remember to check it out. And then Celine. I can't forget that cute little gurl, can I? LOL! She is so adorable! Happee Birthday gurls.

Bye for now...

Monday, July 2, 2007

It all happen....

I told Shabeta
And then my sis somehow figured out
and then Chanelle
just because I braided my hair
and now
the whole world wants to know
and they will never guess
Five people know now

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Becka Boo...

To: Becka

by Hazel (the drawing and the poem)

When I was sad
You were there for me
When I was happy
You shared the joy with me

Everyday was fun
Because you were around
Each new day an excitement
Because I shared the day with you

Our girlish talks in the jet tub
Getting numb in the snow
Sharing each others dreams and secrets
Those times I will never forget

Even if miles hold us apart
And the hours and time different
Even if we are so far away
Miles can't keep us apart
Cause you'll always be in my heart

Nothing will ever tear us apart
Nothing will take me away from you
As friends come and go
You will never go
Only keep coming

I love you
And I will never ever forget
You'll always be in my heart forever
I found you
My BEST friend