miles away

I miss you, too much. =\

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oh, and the month's ending post will come tmr kays.

monotone?

Vacation so far. I always describe me vacation as one word, "boring." I mean, if I don't, it's like a broken tradition. But when I think about it, vacation isn't boring cause I don't sit and do absolutely nothing. I mean, I do my work, I go to school, I hang out with friends. It's been like normal vacations, yet different in it's own special way. =)

Pretty much, I stayed at home for the whole week. On Tuesday and Friday, which is today, we hitched out to school. Just hung out, and pretended to work. Well, okay fine. I did do some work. I had more to score though. Today we made a record of waking people up. hahaa. A call to Shab at 8:30, telling her we were coming to her house in 5 minutes. hahaa. =X Isaac kept insisting that waking him up at 10 was way too early. Righttt.

oh, and on a random hand, Isaac couldn't believe my sis and I were in the Curve last night when he called us. He literally doesn't think the Changster sisters can end up in the Curve. eh, right. =\ And on another random note, I've been called popular. That's just a bit off. hahaa.

Hopefully, my next and last week of vacation will be more exciting. Yes? =) Just can't wait for vacation to end. School might mean stress, but it's much more fun than being cooped up in between 4 walls. And very small walls they are. hahaa. Who wants an outing? All say, "Ay! Ay!" wooties!

He's coming back. And I can hardly wait.
Cause I'm finally ready to meet him in the clouds.

Cause I'm happy, and you guys aren't..
Cause I'm going head first into my next adventure. And somehow, I'm ready. Yet scared.

Just so you know..

of birthdays!

Belated Birthday wishes for Mr. Brandon Tan :)

And extra belated birthday to Gilbert.

Do you see it?

One day, a 1st grade teacher was going to explain evolution to the children.

She asked a little boy, "Tommy, do you see the tree outside?"

TOMMY: Yes.

TEACHER: Tommy, do you see the grass outside?

TOMMY: Yes.

TEACHER: Go outside and look up and see if you can see the sky.

TOMMY: Okay. (He returned a few minutes later) Yes, I saw the sky.

TEACHER: Did you see God up there?

TOMMY: No.

TEACHER: That's my point. We can't see God because he isn't there. Possibly he just doesn't exist.

A little 6 year old girl who had been listening, spoke up and wanted to ask the boy some questions.

The teacher agreed and the little girl asked the boy, "Tommy, do you see the tree outside?"

TOMMY: Yes.

DIANA: Tommy, do you see the grass outside?

TOMMY: um, yep!

DIANA: Did you see the sky?

TOMMY: Yesss!

DIANA: Tommy, do you see the teacher?

TOMMY: Yes

DIANA: Do you see her brain?

TOMMY: No

DIANA: Then according to what we were taught today in school, she possibly may not even have one!

For we walk by faith, not by sight.
2 Corinthians 5:7

This is home

And now after all my searching
After all my questions

I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see the sunset..

What a pity I can't pause my life, and live my past again.
I wish I could see what I can see now.
I'm sorry for the way I saw you.
It was completely wrong.

the positive side of everything.
the light in the dark (:

it's just a feeling that no one knows yet.

..the feeling like you're wasting your life sitting there. It's back. Welcome vacation. Welcome sleepy heads. Bye school. =)

and the feeling..

..no one knows yet.. :D
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Rewind.

Brenda's birthday parteyy!


And yesterday I curled my hair.
It was cool. I should do it again one of these days.

oh, i'm so happy. Isn't it amazing how good God is? *smilez*

tags

Dear Colombaras,
I hope you guys have arrived safely in USA. Will miss your constant visits to Malaysia. And of coursee, seeing the two adorable pumpkins grow up. God bless!

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Tagged by Zoe and Raquel.

Rules : a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle. b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name. e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says,"Is this okay?" You say?
Till I see you-Hillsong

2. How would you describe yourself?
Because you loved me-Celine Dion

3. What do you like in a guy?
Bye Bye-Mariah Carey

4. How do you feel today?
Jesus take the wheel-Carrie Underwood

5. What is your life's purpose?
Someone's watching over me-Hilary Duff

6. What is your motto?
When you look me in the eyes-Jonas brothers

7. What do your friends think of you?
Part of a Fool-Juwita Suwito

8. What do you think of your parents?
No Sacrife-Jason Upton

9. What do you think about very often?
Free-Hillsong Kids

10. What is 2+2?
Rest in You-Hillsong

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Only Hope-Mandy Moore
(what a coincidence, the same as Zoe's answer!)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Wait for you-Elliot Yamin
(erm..right. And I don't even like anybody..)

13. What is your life?
Oh Gravity-Switchfoot

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Captivated-Vicky Beeching

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
my cheerleading track (it's like, hahahaaa!)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Mystery-Brooke Fraser

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Me and Jesus-Stellar Kart

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Wherever the wind blows-Pillar

19. What is your biggest fear?
Take my breath away-Emma Bunton

20. What is your biggest secret?
Teardrops on my Guitar-Taylor Swift

21. What do you think of your friends?
One Life-Mary J. Blige/U2

22. What will you post this as?
Never had a dream come true-S Club 7

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Rainbow-Hillsong Kids
(righttttt.)

I tag: erm.. anybody. =)
--
the art of making something out of nothing.
The positive side of disaster.

Stop and Stare;

"Why, you're only a mouse!"

"You humans have no imagination!"

Yes, I gotta watch Prince Caspian yesterday night. I mean, I was dying to watch it ever since I knew it was coming out. I'm a BIG Narnia fan. With the whole collection of books, I literally knew the whole story even before I watched the movie. The bummer was that they changed the movie so much, it hardly followed the book. It's more like the story was edited, they cut and pasted parts all over in the movie, making it totally different from the book. Still, it was great. It was never in the book that Caspian and Susan had "a thing for each other." As Susan said, "After all, I'm a thousand years older than you." Still, it was romantic. hahahaa. =P

Other than that, I expected Caspian to be much younger. I mean, he looked older than Peter. I had always imagined some small guy who was very young. 12ish? xD Well, he was quite handsome and smarter than I imagined. I have no idea, I was imagining that he couldn't fight very well. hahaa. And Susan was really pretty.

It's really Biblical if you've read the story before. Else, it wouldn't sound very Biblical. Still, if you can see the lesson in it, yes!

And Reepicheep was just as I imagined. As adorable as Lucy thought he was, and full of dignity. Lucy: "Why he's so cute." Reepicheep: "Excuse me, who said that?!?" HAHA.

Lastly, but obviously not last, when Aslan tells Lucy..

"Things never happen the same way a second time, Lu.

OMG. How true. *sighs*

Okay, I'm getting off the subject. Let's rewind. I went to watch Prince Caspian with my family to celebrate my sister's birthday. So yea. That brings us to her birthday..

Thanks for being such a great Jie jie.
You've been through all my hard times with me, and even though you scold and fret, it's only because you love me that much. Love you too. :)

--
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

say it to me

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA! Really enjoyed the party. It was fun. I got pushed into the pool by Brandon, and beat Weeyen in a swimming race. haha! I'm really fast k? Don't under estimate the power of a HAZEL!! hahahaa. Evil Jon was saying good bye, and then tried to push me into the pool. TSK. heh. =P And Grace Kam was totally a little lady man. With her handbag, and phone. Wonder who she was SMSing? *winks!*

Secondly, I cut my hair! And I'm freaking out. K, seriously. Someone spam my cbox and tell me my hair will grow. haha. Cause right, I got this really cool style, except the hairdresser cut of too much of my bangs. So it's like really short now. =( But I love my sides, cause it's layered all the way down. And the back length is straight instead of V-shaped like before. A tweeny bit layered and thinned out. And the boys are lost. hahaa!

Other than that, life is pretty much, great? =\ I mean, you gotta look at the positive side of things. Right? It's interesting, and I find like I can't stop smiling. Thank you so much God!

EDIT

Here is a pretty neat little thing from Paul Harvey.

Paul Harvey Writes:

We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better. I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would.

I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated. I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car. And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.

It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.

I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in.

I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.

When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her. I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.

On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your Mom.

If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.

I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.

When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.

I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boy\girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.

May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.

I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it.. And if
a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he is not your friend.

I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.

May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.

I hope your mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Hannukah/Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.

These things I wish for you - tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, it's the only way to appreciate life.

Written with a pen. Sealed with a kiss. I'm here for you. And if I die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you.

All part of life, and how wonderful it is. =)

Fight the good fight!

my Savior lives. =)

It's funny how you wake up, ad suddenly sense comes to you for like the hundredth time. I mean, it's like reality never hits me fully. 'Nways, I was crying out of thankfulness. Jesus, I love you sooo much.

I forget when, but Pastor Jessica was telling us in chapel about how God will never forget you. And oh my gosh, it's so true. Really. In my saddest moments, I've always wondered, "Where in the world is my Savior?" It always feels like He just left me in a dark ally, and disappeared of into the world full of happiness. Indeed not, he was carrying me through each dark valley. And only when he's taken me through, I realize he was there all along. Man, I was probably a very squiggly child in his arms.

He always cares for you. And I'm always experiencing it, all the time. So many times I lose faith in him. Faith is just like a shield from Satan's weapons. (In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.) When I lost faith, Satan bombarded me with his weapons such as fear. (Don't I sound so Biblical? I just studied about this in my Bible study ;D)

oh, but He remained faithful. He didn't forget me. And he saved me.
Isn't he so wonderful. =)

2 Timothy 4:7 - I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

and more joy!

woopies. Here's the video. Taken by my sis with our cacat camera, so yea. It doesn't pick up sounds so I added the sound track to it. Enjoy!



And I changed my blog skin again. ;D
So cute riightt? teehee. Memoriess. They just flow back into your head and make you smile. *bigbigsmiles!* I'm happy. Very very happy.

and Zoe, I'm happy for you. Hopefully you won't get hurt. Just enjoy your last year in Malaysia. I'm happy for you, and your crazy(?) decision. hahaha.

Don't disappoint her, pleasee. You don't deserve it anyways.
I beg you, whatever you do, don't treat her like you treated me.
Love you Zoe! =)

oh JOY!

Man, I loved it. So much, I feel like doing it again.
Please, another event soon. woots! Pictures pleaaseee.
And next time, we need more people. Boys, comm'on. It's fun!!
*big BIG smilez.*

WE ROCK!!
Man, does anyone have a pic of the last pose from the center view? I'm cut out in this one. hahaha.

And the band..You guys did great. =)





Lastly..

Zoe! =)
And miss prettehh.

Over all, it was fun. I mean, you take out the suckish parts. Like, if you had dared Matthew, I would of like of gotten you back, and um.. embarrass you with ahem. HAHAHAHA. =) Okay, fine, I'm not that mean. Oh, and cheer. It was so cool how when Low started playing there was a loud scream. WOOTS. I can't wait for another event. =)

oh and..Thanks so much for everything, Ms. Jazbia. I've got to know you so much more then someone who is really strict. =) A pastor's wife isn't that scary. After all, my mother is one right. hahaha!

by His strength

Becka, you just saved me. I was beginning to think I couldn't do it, after how exhausted I got today. =\

So, tomorrow's the big day. This morning, I wasn't nervous at all. I mean, even if we had to shake our butts at the band. hahaa! But, gosh, we found it to be so exhausting. Our practices have been really luxury. Air condition and even floor. It's really hard to do it in the sun with an uneven ground. Especially, when we have to get down on our knees and all. The gravel/pebbles kill.

So yea, I'm nervous now. Like really nervous. I stress that someone will forget her poms, or a ribbon is lost in the process of tying it on, or something like that.

Let's just remember..

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

We're praying REALLY hard before we perform tomorrow.

And now Shab's migrating to Canada..

A migration bomb has totally hit Malaysia.
I mean, why does everyone have to leave!
I wanna migrate too, I wanna go home.

Man, I'll miss you all bunches.
Zoe, Shab, Melissa..

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me.
I had your love, I had all.
Because you loved me.

It's been a hard journey. And I guess I'll never know what's ahead.
Thanks bunches God. I've just realized that you'll never forget me. =)

riiighhhtttt?

Taggethed 'gain!

#o1. What is the most important thing in your life?
I wish I knew. And I wish it was Bapa. =)

#o2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
erm, Iciecreamnessgoodness. hahahaa.

#o3. Where do you wish to get married?
on the beach with waves splashing on my bare feet. I want sand to get into my eyes so know one can guess why I'm crying. oh, man! What happiness. hehee. =P

#o4. How old do you think you'll be permanently owned by your lover?Well, for certain when I'm a senior citizen. Other than that, I have no idea.

#o5. Are you in love?
Nope. And proudly so. xD

#o6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Ume Tei, Japanese food delight!

#o7. Name the latest book you bought?
I don't think I've ever bought one. eh.

#o8. What is your full name?
Hazel Chang Tian Ai, known as Hazel Chazel, Bazel, Mazel, and sometimes I'm even a weather forecast. how insulting. ahahaa.

#o9. Do your prefer mother or father?
Both are terribly awesome.

#o10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
for the first time? I have no ideaa. I'm not a fan of anyone.

#o11. Christina or Britney?
Christina is a nicer name. hahahaa!

#o12. Do you do your own laundry?
I'm glad I don't. =)

#o13. The most exciting place you want to go?
oh goodies. I have no high expectation. Just to go home, and see my dearest friends amaze over how much I've changed for the better. =) Maybe just for a vacation, cause I love you all here too.

#o14.Hugs or kisses?
Huggies are so much better.

#o15. Point out 5 things about the person who tag you.
#o1. Hyper! =DDD
#o2. Talkative!
#o3. a great friend
#o4. super encouraging and understanding
#o5. strong character. I'm so proud of you Sarah!

8 things that i am passionate about.
#o1. God
#o2. Friends
#o3. Family
#o4. Cheer!
#o5. my bloggie! hehe.
#o6. living life to the very fullest
#o7. not being sad, forever HAPPY!!
#o8. one that others can trust

8 things I say too often.
#o1. Riighhttt.
#o2. Smart. *rollseyes*
#o3. Shucks!
#o4. What in the world!
#o5. Gosh!
#o6. thingy-ma-bobbies
#o7. whatcha-ma-call-it
#o8. Yea right.

8 songs i could listen to over and over again
#o1. Someone's watching over me-Hilary Duff
#o2. Because you loved me-Celine Dion
#o3. Captivated-Vicky Beeching
#o4. Me and Jesus-Stellar Kart
#o5. My Savior My God-Aaron Shust
#o6. When you believe-Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston
#o7. No Sacrifice-Jason Upton
#o8. Wherever the Wind Blows-Pillar

8 things I learned from last year till today.
#o1. Everything happens for a reason
#o2. It doesn't matter what others think
#o3. Get your priorities straight!
#o4. Teamwork!
#o5. Don't give up, it's not the end
#o6. God understands!
#o7. Being angry or emo is not going to solve anything
#o8. Be thankful of what you've got

oh, I don't care anymore

Mr. Devoted "Wo-wo" is back! Man, I missed it. =)
Now, I can go out. Who's keen for an outing? I'm dying for one!
//
MONEY

It can buy a House

But not a Home

It can buy a Bed

But not Sleep

It can buy a Clock

But not Time

It can buy you a Book

But not Knowledge

It can buy you a Position

But not Respect

It can buy you Medicine

But not Health

It can buy you Blood

But not Life

It can buy you Sex

But not Love

So you see, money isn't everything.
And it often causes pain and suffering.
--
Taggethed! :D
The Rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Try to go as random as possible!
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

#o1. I can't stand people who suspect things so easily without proof. taadaa. I said it, happy?

#o2. I am totally unlike my sis when it comes to being studious. Especially History and Language Arts. Yes, I'm from America. But, geesh. I was only 10 then. What sorta history and English do you expect me to learn? hahaa!

#o3. I write in a diary. Yes, all those He smiled at me today *melts* ahahaha! Kidding. My diary is full of my terribly bad thoughts. For example, what a stupid Math question. HAHAHAA. =)

#o4. I love candy, but candy corns suck. Seriously, they make you sick. =P

#o5. Malaysians are so puzzling. I ask to go to the bathroom, they go, "oh, the toilet." I ask for, "White out" they go, "huh?" or "what?" till I finally go, "oh, I mean liquid paper." I so can't understand them.

#o6. I'm really good at throwing basketballs or any sorta sports ball. I mean, I hit the coolest places, like someone's head. So chun riighttt? :D

#o7. I hate writing random stuff about me, and I'm doing it now? Well, that so random. ;D

#o8. hmm, and wouldn't you know it. This is so random. xD

I tag: well, YOU. hahaa. I like Melissa's way. Yep, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and you. wootie-doopie-dotsss!

Mummy darhling,

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
Ill be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gotta listen to this song. It's so nice.
'Nways, Mummy, thanks for bringing me into this world. I love you!

I love you guys too bits.
You're the only ones who understand what others don't.
*rollseyes*

bruning coals upon my head

I slapped you on the cheek, but you turned around and let me slap the other. You overcome evil with good, making my fault obvious to all.
--
One day, my third grade teacher posted a stick figure of a boy on the white board. We were then asked to bully it. We all lined up, threw sponges full of water at him, scribbled at him, shouted at "him". Literally, bullied him.

After we were satisfied, she walked up to the board, and took off the torn and wet picture. Underneath, there was a picture of Jesus. He was ruined as well, wet and scribbled all over. You could see the wound that you yourself had made. I remember her telling the class the meaning of this activity, and then saying, "Even hazel did it," as if I were a perfect person.

But no, indeed I am not.

You know, it took a long time to get that message my teacher taught me into my head. Ever since I was a 9 year old till now, a 14 year old. And every message I hear takes time to sink in. You only fully get it when you experience it.

Let's just say, this time I got the easy way. Which is something I should be grateful about. To think, I hurt a real human boy. Not just a stick figure. And.. I hurt Jesus. A relief that I wasn't the stick fellow, but I was the bully.

So here's the post about all about my misdoings. I'm a terrible sinner.

You were called "the most annoying boy I ever knew". I complained that you always like to disturb me. I whacked you, yes seriously. I think your the first boy I ever whacked. I scolded you, complained, talked behind your back, and called you names.

And all you did was return it with good.

Romans 12:17;21-22:
Do not repay anyone evil for evil.. On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

I don't know whether you even know about this verse, but who cares, you put it into action. I'm sure I wasn't considered an enemy, well I hope not, but you still returned my evil with good.

Yes, and in returning good, you've made my fault obvious for all to see. That's what the burning coals on his head means. In olden days, giving coals to others was an act of kindness. But on someone's head? That's a little weird. What the scriptures really mean is you're doing kindness as a get back. You're overcoming it, with good.

I'm sorry. I now appreciate your little acts of kindness. So many times, I thought you had so much more to learn in life. Now I realize that I do too. We're only learning together, step-by-step.

There's a Jesus inside each and everyone of us. When you hurt someone, you're hurting Jesus as well. Don't ever forget that.

You've been a great friend, Gilbert. I love you.

and here we go again

Cross Country Race. And after all, I didn't have to run. I mean, Miss Cath you totally saved my life. Else, gosh. Get ready for my funeral. HAHAHA. Last year, I was totally exhausted. I remember just trying my hardest to get it finished with and in the end I won 9th place. eh. Riighhttt.

Instead I got to do timing. Woopies. I remember my sis telling me that yesterday night, I was practically jumping up and down with happiness! Gosh, thank you so much Miss Cath!

So yea. You guys did great. I used up all my voice cheering you all. hahaa! =)

She rocks. Common, we were bored. xD

So this is what happens. We were like all cooled down from running, me included cause I was in the hot sun right, when Mrs. Jasbeer comes and asked us to show her our cheerleading dance. We were like, WHAT?! In the end, she asked us to practice till 12.30. It was the quietest and most unenergetic practice ever. Gosh, duh we were exhausted.

And to end off, I got a terrible cramp in the shoulder after that. It sucks k. Gosh, I'm so exhausted. =\

I'm off.

don't you know?

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one
Understands where you are

Someone loves you
Even when you don't think so
Don't you know
You got Me and Jesus
By your side through the fight
You will never be alone on your own
You got Me and Jesus

Even when you don't think so, don't you know?
You got Me and JESUS!

Yep. Thank you so much Jesus. And Grace, you rock! =)


Mummy feels guilty. My poor Esther and Chanelle. =(
And I have no idea how to find them.


oh, and I finally solved the rubik's cube. Yippee!




Just to prove to you. It's hard k?

what a feelin'

the feeling that you're brain froze. I know, it's like again!
I'm sitting here, wanting to do something, yet not knowing what I want to do. Sitting here, thinking about something, but not knowing what I'm thinking about. Lastly, but terribly the worst, I can't understand myself. I'm trying to decide something very important, as Jon would say, "a life and death situation" that seriously is not that serious. Yea, and I can't seem to get my answer.

The funniest thing was when I told Jon my head "wasn't frozen anymore" he replied, "let me guess, you defrosted in the microwave." LOL. That was so lame Jon, but at least it made me laugh. I don't feel like I can laugh anymore. The weather is totally taking out all my energy. =\
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One the other hand, I got my mother to act young again..

I love you Mummy!

changster sisters

I don't get it. Half the time, everyone thinks my sis and I are enemies or something evil like that. heh. As if. Sure, we don't get along perfectly, but sisters are always sisters. hahaa. You shouldn't talk if you don't have a sister. hehee.

We're the cool Changster sisters. So be aware. xD

I mean, when my sis feels like camwhoring, you better do it with her. It doesn't work any time else. =P

why?

Ever since Silas could talk, he always had to know why. You tell him to do something, you always know the reply you'll get. "Why?" After replying his first why, he'll ask it again. Most of the times, I manage to satisfy him but sometimes I get totally lost of answers. "Just because Silas!"
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Today brings to us a new month. I mean, dong. It's May already. Well, this morning I was thinking about what I went through during April. It's time to reflect..

Just because..

You know something. I once was just like Silas. Circumstances come and I'm sitting there wondering why, why, and why me! Yes, and only focusing on that one thing because I want to know why. But you know, I learned that I don't need to know the why of things. Firstly, cause it might hurt me more. Plus, I'm not meant to know. Secondly, because knowing the why of things is not going to change anything!

I also realized that being depressed totally sucks. Seriously. I'm not rebuking those who are 'emo' all the time, because.. Well, look. They have worst problem then I do. I'm not kidding. Once upon a time, Hazel was emo a lot of times because someone didn't talk to me for 1 day? eh. Those days, I seriously had nothing better to do. And I repeat, I have such a tiny weeny problem compared to others. There's so much more in life.

Of Teamwork

April brought something very important into many of our lives. 9 of us especially. I mean, it took up a lot of our time and all. But, it's fun and it gets us excited. I respect you all for always trying your best. And for discipline and teamwork. Man, with no adult around during practice, we could easily fool around. Indeed. But somehow there was always this tension inside of us to practice. In those practices and times we spent together, I not only learned how to cheer, make poms, and change into costumes with giggling and screaming girls behind curtains, but also to respect each one of you as someone special. Everyone counts. Without even one of you, the routine would be incomplete. There needs to be teamwork, before we can succeed.

Bye Bye

As every month comes to an end, I hate to think that it's one month closer to November. Not that I hate November, 'ello my birthday's in that month. ooh, Zoe. I will you so much, you'll never be able to tell how much. But you wanna know something? Something that keeps me going. I'll never have to say bye, cause you'll always be in my heart, dear. And even if we might not be able to see each other again, we will in heaven. :) It won't be hard to find you, you'll be the prettiest angel there, the one that looks like me.. ;D

oh, and in April I wrote my first will. hehe.