Saturday Night

What a NIGHT!!! As usual I went to Youth Group and then started that hectic night. I meet Ester there and then saw two other GRC students. And then I was feeling sick and tired with a stomach pain. I saw Brandon and Tung Seng, which was really random, cause I saw him at a coffee shop! Anyway, here I was feeling sick. hot and tired...and thinking about school work.

And so now here I am listening to a sermon from my old church in Maine. By the formal children's pastor. And it's about Biblical REST!!! Just what I need...peace. And that's all God wants us to do. Only hold the yoke of rest. All God wants us to do is rest. That's the best, and that's enough.

I'll write again. Bye...

Video, watch it's so funny!

My sis will be so embarrasseed....oh well...please take time to watch...and visit the science center and try it yourself...when my sis fell in you should see how hard I'm laughing!

Random stuff

Yesterday at school we worked hard, I hope, and knitted....it's like the "trend" now... Anyway, since I got back to knitting, I finished my bag, it's suppose to be a bag, except it turned out smaller than I thought, so now it's a hand phone case, for me...lol...I don't even have a phone. So now I just need one! And then my sister brought ribbon to school, don't ask me why, and all the boys used it up, so there goes my precious ribbon. I shouldn't of even trusted her with it. And then she says scold them, they did it. But then it's not their fault cause my sister was not suppose to let them have it and shouldn't of given it to them in the first place. My poor ribbon! She doesn't even know how much it cost...

Change the subject, you don't know how absent minded my sis can get....so lol, I have this old picture of her when she was playing in the snow. And she's like dreaming or something. And she won't put it on her blog...so I'll put it on mine.

My day dreaming sista...

Praising the Lord...

...strawberry gurl...

loving it...

me..."feeling" the snow...

sCiEncE

Taking an interview...who hates science? Me too, high five! I totally agree. My two worst subjects is History and Science....they do not rock at all! Agree with me please....they are so stressful! Sorry shabi....I don't think science rocks, to me it doesn't make any sense at all. So yeah, I am totally freaked out! Cause I have a science test tomorrow....

Anyway, today at school was fine, except it was a bit embarrassing. I won't tell any of you...so don't beg. And shabi, how dare you make my sis and chanelle so curious....lol!

BM class was so funny... I loved the part when a dog kissed Jon....hehe....anyway, the electricity going off was cool too.

GTG...have to study again! Shabi, remember tomorrow morning I need your help.

Gave up....recieved hope....

I failed my History test and passed my Math....is that good or bad? I guess both. Anyway, I was really depressed cause I would have to do the whole long hard book again. According to my sister, there was 7 people who comforted me....thanks all of you....and out of the 7, 4 people convinced Miss. Catherine to only make me do the self test again. Which is a BIG relief! I am still so scared! Plus, I have this crazy Science test coming up, and Science is so stressful. So please pray for me....for both test...*scared*! And Dawn, thanks for your words of encouragement, AND I AM NOT SMARTER THAN YOU. I mean it. Don't stress me on that FACT. Anyway, I am totally sore from the game of Captain Ball....my poor legs! That game was so cool, wasn't it? To me anyway...well, got to go...have to study again.

Just remember, failing a test isn't everything. And even if I don't have to do the book over this time, one day I'm gonna have to do a book over, and it might be harder.

PRAY!

One person....

ONE PERSON
IMPACTED MY LIFE
AND IT'LL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

ONE PERSON
TOLD ME, "I CARE"
AND "I LOVE YOU"
AND IT WAS SUCH A KIND ACT I FELT LIKE CRYING

ONE PERSON
LEFT A COMMENT ON MY BLOG
TELLING ME THAT I'M SPECIAL
AND THAT I SHOULD CHEER UP

IF ONLY, I COULD BE THAT PERSON
LIKE THE ABOVE
AND IMPACT
ONE PERSON'S LIFE
SO IT'LL NEVER BE THAT SAME AGAIN

WOULDN'T IT BE SO WONDERFUL
THAT YOU IMPACTED ONE LIFE?

Purple

Every child is an artist. The problem is how
to remain an artist once he grows up.

- Pablo Picasso

In first grade, Mr. Lohr said my purple tepee wasn't realistic enough, that purple was no color for a tent, that purple was a color for people who died, that my drawing wasn't good enough to hang with the others. I walked back to my seat counting the swish swish of my baggy corduroy trousers. With a black crayon, nightfall came to my purple tent in the middle of an afternoon.

In second grade, Mr. Barta said, "Draw anything." He didn't care what. I left my paper blank and when he came around to my desk, my heart beat like a tom-tom while he touched my head with his big hand and in a soft voice said, "The snowfall. How clean and white and beautiful."

Author Unknown

happier...

Everyone says I'm being emo....so I'll talk about something happier. Um, I took a History LPT test and it was so hard, I'm scared stiff. Hopefully I don't fail! PLEASE!!!! Anyway, I'm so scared! Haha, this is not happy stuff! LOL!

Anyway, chapel was okay. I mean like half the time we were playing or more like laughing! Which is a good thing for my soul. Anyway, I got this comment in my shout box yesterday and it said Bob?Roberts: hi do you know who I am. LOL. I thought it was Sarah at first then she said no, then I ask Roberts he said no. And we finally found out. PAUL LYN!! Haha, I forgot her boy name is Bob!

K, anyway, seems happy enough right? And I don't know whether to be glad about it. Oh well...happy weekend everybody...

I wish...

I wish...
that someone would care to say
in person,
that I'm their good friend.

I wish...
that someone would say...
that they love me
in person

cause...both these wishes came through
but through notes,
and if someone really means it,
wouldn't they say it in person?

Be Yourself

Sometimes, I wish I was this person, or that person and try to copy that person or this person. Well, I read this short story in Chicken Soup for the Soul and would like to share it with you.

Be Yourself

Ever since I was a little kid, I didn't want to be me. I wanted to be like Billy Widdledon, and Billy Widdledon didn't even like me. I walked like he walked; I talked like he talked; I signed up for the high school he signed up for.
Which was why Billy Widdledon changed. He began to hang around Herby Vandeman; he walked like Herby Vandeman; he talked like Herby Vandeman. He mixed me up! I began to walk and talk like Billy Widdledon, who was walking and talking like Herby Vandeman.
Then it dawned on me that Herby Vandeman walked and talked like Joey Haverlin. And Joey Haverlin walked and talked like Corky Sabinson.
So here I am walking and talking like Billy Widdledon's imitation of Herby Vandeman's version of Joey Haverlin, trying to walk and talk like Corky Sabinson. And who do you think Corky Sabinson is always walking and talking like? Of all people, Dopey Wellington-that little pest who walks and talks like me!

So you get the picture, right. Be yourself. Cause you never know, you might walk and talk like a person who walks and talks like another person and in the end that person walks and talks like you. And it'll just be going on and on. And you don't know who your walking and talking like! LOL!

just talking nonsense

Can you believe it? I have received 4 appreciation notes so far, it's only been 3 days. So today, at the end of the day I was scribbling thank you notes. If you haven't received one, patience, it's coming.

Anyway, while I was testing my sister for her history LPT, I came across this wonderful poem in Raquel's blog. Just like to share with you, and then answer the question below....

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow.

so the thing is when you say I'm a Christian
what are you thinking?

That's a really hard one! Hmm, I wish that when I say I'm a Christian I mean what's above, but sometimes it's not always true! When I say I'm a Christian, I mean this...

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I mean that I've accepted Christ into my heart,
and sometimes, I think I'm holier than you

When I say... "I am a Christian"
sometimes, I mean, that I am one
but sometimes I don't feel like I am one

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I wish that I could be like a above,
but after all, I'm not perfect
as a Christian is not

Well, today was an okay day. I mean nothing great about it. I had to ask Shabeta for a lot of help in my Science, and then after school, we stayed back for the magazine, and got angry, laughed, got upset, sad, and blah blah blah. We STILL haven't finished the front cover! LOL! Anyway, came back, lazed about and still am, when I'm suppose to be studying for a TEST! Oh well, better go!

Chicken Soup for the Soul

I've totally fallen in love with the series of books by the name of Chicken Soup for the Soul. There's like a ton, Chicken Soup for the Heart, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul, Chicken Soup for the Nurse's Soul (I wanna read that one!) Sorry can't get any pictures. You should really read them. It is not a book you EAT! You read it. And it's put together by Alice Green. (Is there a another "e"?) Anyway, they rock.

Daddy!

Getting my sister MAD is so COOL!

Anyway...she put this really cool post on her blog. I really want to put it on mine to make her mad, but I won't. Just check it out, k?

Hmm....

Hmm, don't know what to post. Let's see, yesterday, at 3pm, I went to Youth Meeting in DUMC. Then we rushed back home and went out for dinner at a friend's house. They're house is so nice! It's not a house, it's a condo. And really homey. So nice just to sit in the rocking chair and think in peace while the adults talk and the children do their own thing. Quite well behaved...we didn't have to "babysit" after all! Anyway, today, hmm, just came back from church. Going shopping in the afternoon and probably will swim. That's about it. See ya all tomorrow!

And, by the way, I just posted more pictures of my trip to KL Tower on my picasa web album. Check it out.

My Life...my Changing Life

A changing LIFE, it just changed. Please take the time to read it again.

Life is hard for me...it's not easy being a MK, TCK, or PK, is it? If you know what I'm talking about, then you know a little bit about how my life is. It's hard. I often think, how come I'm here...how come I'm living in this crazy world? Negative thoughts run through my head...I just sometimes hate my life! But God has put me in this world for a reason and a purpose...and He also has put you in this world for a destiny too. I would just like to share a little bit a my life with you...

As you all know by my accent and my way of life...I'm obliviously from America. I loved my life there...my friends, my school, my church. It was wonderful...the fun I had in school, at my friend's house, and playing in the snow. I thought life was wonderful...brilliant. Maybe, I was wrong...

Then one day, my whole life crashed. I cried, I broke down...I was sad. Miserable. Horror filled my mind...in two weeks, or even two days...I might never see my best friend forever! It was horrible...maybe the worst day of my entire life. My family was ordered out of the United States...out of my beautiful world in Maine...

The next two weeks were a blur in my mind. I remember going to school on the next day and crying in front of the class. When I came home all that I did was pack and unpack. My friends cried, even though they tried not to show those tears.

The hardest part, especially for my sister, was her sad small party. We didn't do anything. Not even give her a present...Mom said we'll give her one in Malaysia because in two days we would be leaving and she didn't want to pack again. I heard my sister crying that night...it was sad.

Saying good bye to my best friend, Rebecca, was hard also. We tried not to cry as we looked at each other for the last time. Rebecca, I miss you.

But adjusting to Malaysia was the hardest. I got culture shock in my own hometown. It was hard to adjust. Hard to make friends...but soon people became friendly, and said Hi at random times, like Roberts and Sarah Ti, who helped me in my work, and just talked to me, and I adjusted, but I didn't forget those times when I cried....

And then the anger I had. So angry that I didn't get to stay on. That I couldn't go to fun town and ride the dragons descend. I would be tall enough now. It was so sad! Just before I left I went and I was two inches short! That was when I was 10. And that I didn't get to go Bangor and win a art medal for my school. The whole school was looking forward for me going to 5th grade cause that meant I could go and win a medal. I had always won art for the academic fair. It wasn't fair! That I didn't get to stay on in The Master's House and go into 5th grade. 5th grade was like the major change in the school. It wasn't fair! I would have been one of the older ones. More people would trust me...I would get to know the older ones better.

Then when I came back, I experienced unfairness by my sister. We had been so close for the one we "really" home schooled...and then, new school...new friends...new experience...no more sister. A sadness overwhelmed me. I was SAD. Finally I posted a post and people comforted me...my sister said sorry.

What really hindered me from getting happy was anger. It was all resolved yesterday, yesterday totally rocks! I had a totally cool day! And chapel went really well. I got rid of the anger and fear I had. And I realized that people DO care for me. And that it wasn't God's fault that I had to leave Malaysia, it was God's PLAN!

After adjusting to school, I felt so close to home that I even shared my secrets with a lot of people. My closest friends, at Broga, all piled up on someone's bed late one night and shared our secrets. We talked and talked till 12 am the next morning. Next day, we talked some more. Not my fault, Beeps wanted too! And more and more. And then 'it' happened... and it almost destroyed my whole personal relationship. Yep, I was upset. But then, it was God's purpose and it is resolved...

And I'm happy...even if sometimes I feel down, I'm happy. I have decided that even if I've adjusted to Malaysia, I will always miss my beautiful home in Maine, my friends, my church, and my schools, but I will be where God wants me to be. And that's Malaysia for this season. It was God's purpose!

I love you, those who are in Maine, and I love you, those who are in Malaysia. Even if life is hard, and I've moved across half the world and back, no matter what, I want to be where God wants me to be. Even if being a MK, TCK, and PK is hard, I will endure it forever. Even if things happen and change. If sometimes I loose a close friend, or get into a fight, I'm still happy. And I want you all to think about this. Really hard...

And last but not least, I want to thank you for being such a wonderful friend all the time. For comforting me when I was down, and telling me not to be emo. For just being yourself, and you sure are amusing! And just having you with me surely has been a pleasure! And no matter what, I always want to be your friend. I love you, Sarah! *sigh* I truly do.

oh yea. And I'm sorry -whoever was there at first (in Sarah's place)- but I guess things will never be the same again. I still love you though and still want to be your friend...

Pictures

I got more baby pictures!!! Yippee! Anyway, did you notice that when I was young, a baby I loved having my picture taken? Now I hate people taking pictures of me!

...sitting...

...crawling...

...walking...

Anyway, today was totally cool! I loved chapel, and God touched me in a totally wonderful way. And yesterday, in devotionals, Miss. Catherine asked us to give out appreciation notes. So I did, and…. Anyway, I gave one to the cute Nivaysh! And he’s so happy now! Isn’t it wonderful when you do something and someone gets happy? Yea, such a wonderful feeling.

But what I really enjoyed was chapel. The message helped a lot but the time at the end to be prayed for was the best. I had so much fear and anger inside me. I know you guys can’t believe I had anger! Anyway, I did, and God released me from it.

Yea, that was my day…I had to wait 30 minutes till my mom picked me up. And then we go back home and then my home has to leave to pick up my sister, then she has to leave straight away to pick up my dad! So it all was very busy! And I still have goals today to finish. Don’t gasp, I am NORMAL!

Story

I've always loved communicating with my old friends in Maine and Massachusetts. So with a few close friends we started a group and we're communicating together with it. And we wrote a really funny story, wonderfully written by Awesome Jackie, Super crazy Elisa, and extremely nutty ME!

Once upon a time there lived a girl named Isabella.

She was only 12, but was already at the height of 5'8.

She was one of the best lemon seed spatters around.

She loved spitting seeds all around.

One day she spit a seed down her annoying brothers throat and chocked him.

Luckily,

he was saved by the prince of the country, who had been taking a ride in the country.

Shocked,

(Elisa leaves us here)

Isabella asked the prince why he would care to save a little idiotic brat like her brother.

He quickly replied,

" Of course I would care,

because some day he will be one of the best watermelon seed spatters in the land!! "And that's the reason," she thought. Isabella replied to the prince, “And you'll receive all the fame, huh?" The Prince got very angry at this accusation and mysteriously turned into a rhino!

Isabella jumped up in surprise and ran as if a thousand wild dogs were after her. The prince smiled to himself and turned back into a human being. "Now you're safe with me," he told the boy."

THE END!

Jesus' <3

the "longer" you look at this picture the more you "see"...

Look at the lines the artist used to draw this picture of Christ. There are scenes from Christ's life. Have you ever seen anything like this?

Share this with a friend or two. In the Circle of God's love, God's waiting to use your full potential.

May God Always Bless You and Your loved ones.

My God Loves Me

You are my God,
my life, my all,
and I live for you alone,
I am Your's evermore

Heaven and earth will shout your praise,
the wonders of your name,
are proclaimed,
EVERMORE

EVERMORE, EVERMORE, EVERMORE

Sometimes it hurts and I feel hurt, cause others have hurt me. And this song really helped me. Because I am Jesus' EVERMORE. No one can separate me from Him. I'm in love with him today.

My Baby Photos!

I only got one scanned so far, but good enough...ready to see me when I was a few months old?

Taa-daa! That's me, no kidding. And I'll scan more. I found some really cute ones when I was learning to crawl and walk. So look forward. And I'll scan some pictures of my sister too...except she won't like that!

Anyway, school today was sure much more interesting! I worked like really hard and I'm still working. Didn't even finish my goals today. That's an unusual thing, for me. So I'm like panicing! Haha, just kidding. I'm trying to work right now. I'm trying, not working! hehe!

Sunday, happy or sad?

I have mixed feelings today. I half really want to go to school tomorrow but I also want vacation still! I'm an odd person! Oh well! Haha! God created me this way. Anyway, I want to share with you some things I learned during the vacation even if it was boring...

1. Everyone makes mistakes and everyone breaks promises
2. The youngest in the family have something in common
3. My God cares for me, EVEN if it seems like no one else cares
4. Friends aren't everything, there just a part of everything.

Well, yea, and I really learned a lot during this vacation. Not about History, Math, English, blah blah blah, but about the things of life. Don't ask me to explain. And if your the oldest in the family, or the middle person, don't ask me to explain either. It's between us, the youngest!

And, I'm going to scan some pictures of when I'm a baby. They're really cute. But of course I think I'm cute! Haha!

Me...I'm 10 years old!

Guess what? I'm going to scan some pictures of myself into the computer. Like the old pictures. See if you can recognize me! Haha, I was 10 and my sis was 11 and a half. Well in Malaysian standard I turned 11 that year. So, taa daa!!!

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Yea, I know, I don't look skinny at all...it's because of all the wrappings...when you play in snow you have to be properly wrapped. Like a ton of layers, first my long johns, then two sweaters, then my thick winter jacket, and my snow pants and 100% woolen socks and snow boots, as well as my scarf and hat and ear warmers AND water-prove gloves. Except in the picture I was getting a bit to hot! Haha, it is cold you know. MUCH colder than Cameron Highland. Don't worry, I didn't lose THAT MUCH weight! I was actually skinnier! LOL!
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It's finally FRIDAY!

K, you all probably think I'm crazy. Everyone is saying, oh, it's already Friday! Yea, but I'm so glad. cause it's been a BORING vacation. Very boring. I didn't go anywhere and didn't do anything. Just being lazy at home. Which is horrible! And wrote a lot in my blog, overwhelmed the people back in Maine with emails and chatted like crazy!

And, I forgot to tell you all, last Friday, not today, I cut my hair. And I was totally freaked out on that day. Cause I cut off five inches of my LONG hair. Bet no one will see the difference... anyway, I layered it also, but just a bit. And I remember when my hair was up to my waist...it's like gone now! Not really! But I exaggerate a lot. That's if you really know me and I dare to do it! Haha! Yea, but it's quite short and have difficulty tying it up now. So I leave it down. Can you believe it? When I first came back to Malaysia it was so hot, to me, that I could not leave my hair down for a sec? Yea, but now I'm quite used to the weather. Is that good, or bad??? I like cold weather so much better! -10 degrees F totally ROCKS!!!

My “hobbies”, bathroom fun...

“What is she going to talk about?” That’s probably going through your mind right now. I’m going to talk about how fun it is to wash the bathroom, how fun it is to cook for your family, and how fun it is to take care of children! I just washed the bathroom today. It’s my regular hobby. Well, not exactly a “hobby”, it’s a chore. But a fun one!

I totally enjoy washing bathrooms when everyone is busy so that no one disturbs me. And then you play some music and then you start! Really cool! You first sweep the floor, and then wash the sink and the toilet, then the shower curtain and the floor. And I won’t continue cause you’re probably very bored. And you probably know how to wash the bathroom, anyway, right? Cause like everyone washes bathrooms around my age and above, at least in America…if you don’t then you should. Learn how to make yourself useful in the house.

And guess what, I love cooking also. Sometimes I cook dinner for my family. I remember when I was about 10 and my friend, Becka (short for Rebecca) use to talk about cooking. Cause she cooks for her family also. We were 10 then. Really fun to cook, you know.

And best of all, children. It’s one of my favorite “hobbies”. I love taking care of them! Especially the young ones like 1 to 4 years old. They’re so fun at that age! It’s when they’re learning how to speak. So they get confused and you can hardly understand them! It’s so cute! I love babysitting and I once even took a course on first aid training so I’m all ready if they get hurt! Haha! The course was really fun! An experienced nurse who works in the emergency room taught it. Wow! Scary! I really want to be a nurse to children, but not in the emergency room!

Yea, so that was my day. Cleaning the bathroom. And in the next couple of weeks I’ll probably do my other “hobbies”. What are you’re “hobbies”? Share them with me.

KL Tower

A visit to the KL Tower was just what I needed. Being cramped up at home all week with no "air" to breathe was horrible and going anywhere was fine with me! As long as I was out of the house.

KL Tower actually proved to be great! It was really fun going up the lift that took a really short time, surprisingly! It only took about 1 and a half min to go up about 400 meter. I timed it. You wouldn't believe, all the way from KL and I saw 1 Utama! Really cool! And I also saw all around KL. It might be a big city, but surprisingly, it had a lot of greenery. It was cool!

And the hundred year old tree. It took RM433,000 just to preserve it! Can you believe it! That's a lot of money. Here's a picture of it...

I got to run cause I want to go with my dad to excersise. I'm gonna go swimming after that. A busy day today is! A great day also!