Monday, March 31, 2008

and I thought it was a new year!

3 months. I know! SoOoOoOoOoo fast. Geesh!

Soeyss, how was my March? Let's rewind.
hmm.. after reading my March post in my blog, secret blog (and you all go: ohh), and journal I realized that March has been one crazy roller coaster for me. I'm gone through a lot of hurt feelings. Yes, I hate changes. And man, it was one big change this month.

School
It was just so hard to except everything. But I'm learning. =)

Elections
LOL. You're hearing this from an American perspective. Man, I didn't know a thing about Malaysian governments. My dad did a lot of question answering. I was so curious. Gosh, don't start testing me now. I still don't understand the complex-y. Geesh, all the Malay names. I'm so gonna die just trying to pronounce one correctly. =P

Facebook
I finally joined. Why? Becca wanted me too. Man, I have a soft spot for you girl. tsk tsk. hahaa! But gosh, I'm glad I did. I never knew so many of my Mainers had Facebook! LOL. My sis just couldn't stop laughing. Jonn, you know what I mean. And I burst out - HAHAHAHAHA!

Memories
They still do last. I'm not denying that. No! And I love Melissa's blog link. ;D Yea, but never hope they they will live again. oh, it sucks. The feeling.

Ever After!
It's my chose to be happy! I love my life. It rocks. I love myself, and everything around me. Why? Cause it's all beautiful through different eyes. Happy ever after! (=

Love is giving someone
the power to break your heart,
but trusting them not to.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

chit chatter

I woke up today at 8:30 and went online just to talk to my wonderful friend who's half across the world. =) hahaa. We had a great time "buzz"ing each other and photo sharing. oh fun! Amanda, you rock!

Well, I loved buzzing. It's so cool, that nice big splatter of paint!

Ashlyn, Amanda, Alyssa, and David
Siblings forever. Miss ya all!

And lastly, Becca and Amanda.
Ignore the frustrated Daniel in the background.
Hahaa. Just like him. ;D

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Other than that, the day hasn't gone much farther, has it?
Well, I'm hoping for a great day.

Cheers!

Friday, March 28, 2008

just a smile!

Man, I look like I have no fun in this world. =\
Hopefully you can tell us apart. We don't look that alike!

ooh, I was taggeths!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What are you craving now? a hug!

2. Have you given your first kiss away? of coursee not.

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? hmm.. Zoe, Sarah, Roberts! Man, I wish I could take more though.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? Maine, duh.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? I have to many dreams. Just don't ask me to pick. =D

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? duh. It's a PROMISE.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now? my friends.

8. Why are you wasting your time to do this? because.. I dunno what to post about? Plus, someone tagged me. haha!

9. What are you gonna do if your friends are sad? aww.. listen to them.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. blur, kind-hearted, and um..

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? you just have to love me and I'll be content. :D

12. Which type of person do you hate the most? the lazy ones.

13. What is your ambition? firstly, a nurse. secondly, someone who makes cards. thirdly, a graphic designer. So altogether, a nurse who makes cards on a computer all at once. How cool is that?

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? point it out of course.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Jesus Christ

16. Are you a shopaholic or not? oh man, I could become one if I can go shopping more often. teehee.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you. blur!

18. What will you do when someone faints in front of you? oh my gosh! SCREAM! or say oh my gosh. hahaa!

19. What makes you different? my American accent! =DD

20. What is your favorite color? Baby Blue!

Feel free to do this if you want. =P

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Pictures tell the story

Well, it has been one busy month! Events after events pile up upon us and sometimes you never even have a chance to think about what's been happening around you.
Let's roll back into the last couple of weeks.

The drama is successfully over! Oh man, I can finally work again!

Field Trip Day(s)!

Lydia Chech :)

The two crazy boys in her team. =P
She came back and started complaining to me all about them.
As if it was my fault and I could solve it. hahaa!

Sarah Banana!

ooh! I love the sunshine in my hair. =)

And the latest joke of the day..
Gilbert is working at his place. Sarah, Shab, and I are chilling in the library. He walks in and started doing something to the door. I give him a weird look. Shabeta asked, "Are you okay Gilbert? Fanning yourself is it?" Sarah and I burst out into laughter when Gilbert replies yes. "Camera!" Then comes the fumble into my bag searching everywhere for my camera. I finally caught him. =D

HAHAHAHA!
Gilbert acting like Gilbert.
Yes, he was swinging the door fanning himself.
And there's such thing called a fan in the library!

ooh eevill math. =\

--
and latest news. I cut Shab's hair! I repeat, I cut it.
*Shock goes all around* hahaa! Chill you guys. It's chill.

ooh and that reminds me, when I say "that's chill" or "it's chill" it means that's cool or it's cool. Just some more American slang for you all. heh. =P Yep, I'm still learning more American slang in Malaysia. hahaa. And I believe I'm influencing some people. Chorch, you had an American slang at the meeting today. I was trying not to laugh. xD It was just a bit off.

ooh what a day. I'm off. =/

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Raindrops keep falling into my heart

I felt like screaming and making a big fuss.
So just be glad I didn't. It was frustrating.
I'm only just starting to learn how to keep my temper.
Thanks James and Chanelle!
Raindrops-paint balls keep splashing on my heart and making a stain.
And I just can't deny what feels so right.
Do I let myself go and feel the rain?
Or should I play with caution and refrain?

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A little note of thanks:
Thank you Gracie for everything. =D
I always feel safe to run to your desk, ask my latest problem as simple as it is. Yes, and you always manages to keep me in tune with all the 6th grade Math that I've already forgotten. ;D You always have a constant smile on your face, and somehow can always laugh no matter how embarrassing the situation is for you. :D Love ya!

And a shoutout to:
Koo-koo! Happy Birthday. Thanks for being a great aunt!

Do I know what you really think of me?

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

=D

The one fact that keeps me going..
It's your chose to be happy or sad. No matter how depressing the circumstance is, you still have a chose. You can allow the circumstances around you to control you, or you can let yourself control yourself.

It's YOUR chose!
So in opinion, if I control my feelings, I'd rather be happy. I mean, common you guys, would you chose to be sad? That would just be more depressing then being depressed. If you get that. I know I never make sense right?

Robo Roberts says:
man
Robo Roberts says:
life's tough
hazelchazel says:
hahaa
hazelchazel says:
I agree
few minutes after sharing our challenges..
hazelchazel says:
but if life isn't challenging
hazelchazel says:
it would be boring
Robo Roberts says:
ya
Robo Roberts says:
true
hazelchazel says:
so I'm happy with my challenges =)

Yep, I am totally content. Life is great, as tough as it is.
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This morning, at 6 am, I was doing the last minute stuff to finish my devotion homework. It was about the big part of life, changes. We had to list 10 changes that we don't like to see, and find the positive side of every one of them. As I slowly went through the list, I realized that every change has something positive in it, as small as it is. Just an example: I hate growing older. It would of been just purfect if I could always remain as a child. But guess what the positive side is? You get birthday presents! hahaa. aww common you guys, it still is positive! *bigsmiles*

Life has it's challenges, it's struggles, it's hurts, it's changes. And we'll all go through a lot, no matter how hard we try not to. Gosh, it just is a part of life. You just can't stop it. But if you don't learn to take it with the right attitude, it's just gonna suck cause you let it suck. I'm learning step-by-step to go through my life, no, I'm not perfect. It's hard to imagine the positive side of everything.

I hate to think about this, but I only have 9 more months before Zoe leaves. Man, I'm gonna miss her. Only one year and nine months before all my senior friends graduate. That's just so sad, I could cry my heart out this moment. Imagine, Shabeta, Roberts, Naomi. Even my sis. They've all impacted my life so much. And in 3 more years, I myself will graduate. Yes, and leave GRC. Gosh, it's depressing. The situation is, but that does not mean it's gonna make me depressed. It's not like I'm not use to change. Man, haven't I left my country, my home, my heart to come here? Sometimes, I still believe my heart is left behind in Maine. I can look ahead into the future, but I don't know what's gonna happen the very next minute. I only had a two week notice when I had to come back here.

ooh, but that's the situation! I'm not gonna let it control me.
No. No matter how depressing and sad the future seems to be, there's always a positive side to it. As I said, as small as it is.

I'm ready to learn to look at the positive side of things.
Life can be great if you learn to look at is at great.

And lastly..




You guys all rock. :D

Monday, March 24, 2008

the bright side

People luv hurting my feelings. =(
Fortunately, I'm more considerate. =)

So all those who tagged me, I know you all just want to know what I think about you riiight. That's why you tagged me. I feel so special. heh. =P

Unfortunately, those who I tagged aren't so considerate.
But who cares. I've just had enough of some of you.

So...
The person who tagged you :
Shabeta Kumar and Jonathan Roberts

Your first five impressions of her:
Shabeta
-quiet
-kind
-a bit out of the gang, if you know what I mean.. (of coursee now I know you aren't!)
-really tall for a girl (which is true)
-ermmmm...
Roberts
-CRAZY (yes, seriously)
-someone who randomly says hi
-which of coursee, is someone who is weird
-popular (no kid)
-friendly?

The most memorable thing she/he has done/given to you :
Shabeta
Earings? I seriously am out of ideas. ooh but I lost one side. I mean, it's SO depressing. =( Don't laugh you all, it's sad!
Roberts
huggies. =D

Memories/the most memorable thing she/he has said to you :
Shabeta
um.. i don't remember, but she says a lot of things that comfort me.
Roberts
I love you? aww.. I love you too Jonn.

If she/he becomes your lover, you two will :
Let's just hope none of them do. Gosh! Shab's my super duper close friend and Roberts is my brother.

If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason will be because :
Let's just not think about that.

Don't ask me about the field trip. I'm blank. =/

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Because He lives!

oh oh! Easter Sunday! It just ain't dawning on me.
I mean, gawk, 2000 (yes. 3 zeros.) years ago Christ died and today rose again!
eh eh. Isn't that suppose to be a happy thing?
Gosh, image if he didn't rise. And just continued being dead.
We Christians would be considered the most pitiful thing on earth.
That would be sad.

Okay. See! I do sound like the most pitiful thing on earth.
But he lives! He's alive and living. =D

'Nways.. your guys all did fabulous in the drama. EXcluding me. haha. kidding. =) Yea.. and Israelites rock right? Especially the girls. hahaa.

heh. That's what girls are for.
Yea, the civilized ones who eat quietly sitting down at a table. =P
As Paul Mae would say: ISH!
I didn't make up the stuff about us civilized peps. Sarah did!

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okie. taggeth time.
Since both Zoe and Shabeta tagged me, I shall have to choose one.
So sorry Shab, I'll do Zoe this time. Since she tagged me first. =]

List out 5 presents you wish for :
-my own handphone (it's very suckish sharing one)
-a laptop
-camera
-pen drive
-and um.. it's a secret

The person who tagged you :
Zoe Tai

Your first five impressions of her:
- I thought she and Rachel were two really close friends. hahaa. They were both in the testing room when I arrived and seemed to be really close.
- quiet
- shy
- Since she was new too, we just kinda followed each other around without saying anything.
- thoughtful? sorry, i kinda ran out of ideas..

The most memorable thing she has done/given to you :
Who cares about presents, she's one of the best I've ever had! Yeap, just friendship itself. You rock Zoe!

Memories/the most memorable thing she has said to you :
awww. Saying I rock? hahaa.

If she becomes your lover, you two will :
ahem. She'll never become my lover. LOL.

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be because :
I just can't and won't image her as my enemy. That would rather be impossible. But, say it does happen in like 120 years from now (haha!) it'll probably because she hates my (other) siblings or close friends. Even still, I won't hate her riight. You know I'm a very good person, yes Zoe?

Five people you want to tag :
-Melinda
-Sarah
-Bee bee
-Roberts
-Kelvin

teehee. And I didn't do the last part. It's so nonsense-ish.

tootles!

Friday, March 21, 2008

Israeliteee back!

 

Without the mud stains.
oohs! We're acting tomorrow. =D
Get ready to meet a whole bunch of sleepyheads at 7:30 in the morning! That includes me. ;D


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oh and not to forgot.. the birthday boyy!

Happy Birthday Sila Cutie Pie!

Miss ya and can't wait to see you and Cassia in May. God Bless and thanks for always being a blessing. Love you bunches! Muaxx!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

through different eyes

Today was just so indescribable.
I mean, gawk, it was just so happy. Despite the saddening things that happen in life, the pains, the sorrows. I learned so much from just being myself.
C'mon you guys, as it says in my profile, everything in life can be beautiful if you look at it through different eyes.
And I'm learning step-by-step how to do that. =]

Just learning to appreciate every small thing makes you smile.
I got this really encouraging email. Just read through slowly, and think about them one at a time before going on to the next one. It does make you feel good.

Laughing so hard your face hurts.
A special glance.
Getting mail.
Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
A bubble bath.
Giggling.
A good conversation.
The beach
Laughing at yourself.
Looking into their eyes and knowing they love you
Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
Running through sprinklers.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS
Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
Playing with a new puppy.
Having someone play with your hair.
Sweet dreams.
Swinging on swings.
Holding hands with someone you care about.
Running into an old friend and realizing that some things never change.
Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
Knowing that somebody misses you.
Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Doesn't it just make you think. Memories just flow in.
oh it just dawns, I'm so blessed!

Was just reading Little Woman for like my twentieth time.
And this part suddenly touched me. Jo's father is in war, and her mother is bearing it so well even if she misses her husband so much. This is what she tells her daughter...

"If I don't seem to need help, it is because I have a better friend even than Father (her husband) to comfort and sustain me. My child, the troubles and temptations of your life are beginning, and may be many; but you can overcome and outlive them all if you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of your Heavenly Father as you do that of earthly one.The more you love and trust him, the nearer you will feel to him, and the less you will depend on human power and wisdom. His love and care never tire or change, can never be taken from you, but may become the source of lifelong peace, happiness, and strength. Believe this heartily, and go to God with all your little cares, hopes, sins, and sorrows, as freely and as confidingly as you come to your mother.

I don't know about you, but just reading that, I've never felt so loved before. I seriously don't know what got into me today, but I love it whatever it is. I just have such happy feeling inside me that it's gonna overflow. There's no way I can express it. It's not hyperness, I am totally calm and peaceful. But oh man, it's such a nice feeling.

All I can remember is driving out of my apartment complex this morning, and seeing all the guards looking so happy. As we drove down the road and I saw family after family, no one looked sad. And I just knew, it's gonna be a happy day. Having a CG outing with all the little 8 to 10 year olds somehow makes me lighter inside. And once again...

I feel like a 11-year-old again!
Why? There's no burdens. My Heavenly father is taking care of it all!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

all about happenings..

the funny ones..
In my Language Arts book, I had quite a few letter writing assignments. I finally had a chance to get Mr Fransis to read it and sign it in between frantic drama practices. I wrote these letters in my cursive handwriting. Well, as Mr Fransis was reading it, he asked, "Are you sure this is your handwriting?" I was rather shocked and replied, "Obviously!" hahaa! Few minutes later he looked up and said, "Your handwriting is more beautiful than your sister's huh?" I was like, "um..yea..?" Lol? And how many times have I heard that? Malaysian's are blind to the "real American style of cursive" that my sister has. heh. =P But then again Chech, my cursive teacher loved my handwriting! =D

When I went up to ask my sister for help in a Math problem cause Jon didn't know how to solve it ;D, Weeyen asked whether it was 903. When we replied yes, he said, "ooh she's catching up to you Jon." hehee! I'm gonna beat you Jon. =]

Two weeks ago, I was teaching Isaac how to do his Math. After one week of vacation and the last two days, he still couldn't manage to do it cause he forgot what I taught him! tsk tsk. So today after school I was impatiently teaching him again. But gosh, it was so frustrating. "1+b=1 and you move over the one becomes b=1-1" right? Yea, and he was saying that the second one is POSITIVE!!! lol. I was jumping up and down in frustration. Gawk. =P

the freaky ones..
the last couple of days there has been drama practice for almost every 6 hours of our time in school. It leaves all us drama crew so behind our work. I didn't even have time to set my goal chart yesterday. Today after lunch I finally had time to sit down and work. And my goodness, I've never felt so glad to sit in my place again and work. hahaa.

ooh and Tommy's been going crazy these days. He's driving us all up the walls and Grace's face turned red with laughing. As Paul Mae (and him now) would say it.. ISH!

and the terrible ones

Cleaning up lunch today. OMG ewww. There was food everywhere on the floor because some very smart people don't know how to throw there trash properly into the trash bin. We should seriously conduct a lesson on how to throw away your food when your finished eating. eh. My hands were all greasy like crazy when I finally finished.

oooh and my computer keeps on freezing. Like nuts. Just posting this takes almost all my patience. So I shall flee..!

Monday, March 17, 2008

I miss you Becka Boo!
and just get lost. you always ruin my day.
I wish you were here so I can talk to you.
So I can hug you. ooh I miss you bunches!!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

oh oh ohh!

Jothi is HIV NEGATIVE!!!

woohoo! hahaa.
Check out the One Life exhibition. It was fantastic!
The props were so cool. Especially the pictures.
They looked rather familiar. =P
ooh no wonders. I made them. hahaha. =DD

and checkie out the theme song. Created especially for this exhibition!

Friday, March 14, 2008

He's carrying me

 

I appear like a spot in the horizon to you.
When you try following, my footprints stop suddenly.
Now you can't follow me, you see only one set of footprints.
But you can't follow them, they are way to big for my feet.
And you wonder where I've gone..

And when I turned around to look back at the footprints in the sand, I noticed that at many times along the path of my life, especially at the very lowest and saddest times, there was only one set of footprints.

“Lord, you said once I decided to follow you, You’d walk with me all the way. But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life, there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”

"My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of suffering,
when you could see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

Thursday, March 13, 2008

ooh funnyzz!

ooh I can't stop laughin'
It was just so funny!
Can't wait to tell someone. hahaa!

oohs, I cut-ted my hair.
I feel young again yet aunty-ish..
hahaa. And don't fret, it's longer at the back. =D

Yea, that means I had quite a great day. =)

oh and check out this. ONE LIFE. DO SOMETHING.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I understand that..

Really I do.
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NOT.

What a boring and exasperating day. I feel like rolling my eyes at everyone in sight and telling them to get lost. Appearantly, I'm much more polite than that. xD

So yea, went to school. It was boring. Seriously.
At least I finally got my Math book. heh. =P
Yessie, 903 here I come.

Me and Isaac.

Yea, my really great friend.
Yes, really.
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NOT.
Now do you know how I'm feeling?
oh shuckers.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The world in the 21 century

Matthew 5.. Again, you have heard that is was said...
Yes, I'm working on memorizing it so chill.

Yea, so I was memorizing a Bible verse when my mind went astray..
and I flipped to the interesting facts at the back of the Bible.
This is a World Vision Bible so it's different.

Came across this section of facts about how the world will be like in the 21 century. It was rather interesting. It talked about Religion, wealth, poverty, access to water and food, health, Aids, Education, literacy, and finally...

The Gender Gap
It hit me like that. Just by reading the title, I knew what it was all about. How woman are treated unfairly. Just a few facts and not made up stories..

In woman's life expectancy it is 100% percent where else men are a twint behind. So yea for woman! =D
In primary school enrollment, only 80% of the woman get to go where else for men, almost 98% go. Same goes for secondary school, woman only have a percentage of 70%. (this is the percent for the whole world)
And for the involvement in government, there's less than 20%.

Two facts that hit me the hardest..
Woman work 2 out of every 3 of the world's total working hours.
About 1 of every 3 girls worldwide is not educated past 4th grade.
Woman earn less than 10% of the world's income!!


And it goes on..
I mean, how sad is that?
So many people of our own gender (I'm talking to the girls here) are suffering across the entire world. If you read this, your already so blessed. You have Internet! This is not all! All the other subjects listed above like access to food and water are already so saddening. Every 15 second a child dies from a water related disease because they have no access to clean water. Imagine.. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6..
15-and a child just died.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9...
15-there goes another.
ooh poverty. This world is suffering and we are the ones who can help because we are blessed. Must I repeat? I'm being honest here. Probably 50% or more of you will read this, feel convicted, and then do nothing about it. It's our natural human instinct. It's mine too. But common you guys, we can do something. And if you really don't know how to help, ask me personally.

Finally, I'll end with a verse..
When you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done is secret, will reward you.

Let's impact this world for Christ. Let's make this world a better place for the coming centuries.

Monday, March 10, 2008

bittersweet

Don't treasure your memories and keep on wishing that they'll happen again, cause then they'll become bittersweet.

That's exactly what I'm doing. I've got so many memories stored up in my brain, wishing that they were still happening. For example, I want school to be the way it was last year. I want to go back to Maine. But even if my memories were to live again, it'll be different. There's always changes.

Don't you just hate it? I know I do. I only like the changes that seem so excited and happy at the beginning. I hate the ones that make me miserable on the inside and outside. The point is, those changes always have a good ending. Not all the time do the changes that start out happy end of happy also.

All through my life I've gone through so many changes. Yet, that does not make me capable of accepting the next change. No, each new change is a whole, 'nother different, challenge for me. I don't even have tips that I've gotten from the other changes I've experienced. I've got no idea how long it's gonna take me to get used to it; I don't know anything. All I know is that I can't back up from it or it'll always be in front of me to confront. But if I get up, and go meet my new change, I'll only have to go meet another one. But changes help, no matter how hard it.

I'm ready to go head-first into my next adventure.
going beyond the boundaries of this unknown world
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So I won't give up,
No I won't break down,
Sooner than it seems life turns around,
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong,
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe,
Someone's watching over me

Saturday, March 8, 2008

of friendship

I've got your back if your got my hand.

It doesn't matter if one's brown and the other's white.
If one's taller and the other's short.
It doesn't matter if one's hairier and the other's not.
Cause after all, we're both teddy bears.

Yea.. after all, we're all humans.

And thankies Sarah for always understanding. Even if we haven't been talking much lately.. we always seem to know what the other's thinking.
Great minds think alike!
;D

Friday, March 7, 2008

ooh anti-social world..

"It's like we're all divided into clicks this year. Everyone's in this group."

You phrases it just right, Isaac Thong.

Ever since a new bunch of guys landed on GRCland , it's been split into gangs. Isaac got that right. He could even tell us every "so-called" click. The 'chick click' as he put it who has me, Grace, Sarah, Paullyn, Beeps. And of coursee, the guy click consisting of Matthew, Kelvin, Di Cheng, Brandon, Minn Zher, and gang. I mean. what happen to the united GRCians?

My sister put it,"Last year also like that what. Sarah, Hazel, Beeps, Tommy.."
Silence. to topic slowly changed.
I mean, even if we kinda did stick together, we weren't anti-social with the rest last year. What about Paullyn, Zoe, Jon, Weeyen. Shab. Weren't we close to them to? Then what about this year? Why is everyone just staying in one group? What happen to the one big happy family like last year?

I miss the old yous.

Sometimes I feel like screaming "Get Lost" to all of you. There's more to friends then just the ones in your 'click'. You've never experienced it without friends have you? It's the worst time in you whole entire life. I know because I've gone through it. Don't believe me, ask me personally. I just wish we were more united.
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Every girls wish is to have someone from the opposite sex who would just listen to her when she finally allows herself to open up and share. Yes, her thoughts, her dreams, her anxieties. All her feelings. The point is, we girls never really have to talk about this to another girl. They already know. And the sad part is that no guy ever wants to listen, do they?

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Down the drainpipe

The little boy in Kindergarten who never stops talking. =D
Noah Steiner's stories. I still remember you cutie pie.
You sure made an impact on us 'big kids' whom you were never afraid of.

Well, let's recall that pumpkin in Kindergarten while I was in 4th grade. I bet the first day he arrived he already made the record of saying so many words in one day. ;D Little chatterbox. I still remember one of the 8th graders writing in her graduation profile that one of her memories was Noah Steiner's stories. Everyday after school, the ones who's parents were coming late would have this after school program, and all the rest would enjoy entertainment by his talking. You walk by, you can only hear his voice.

He had so much to talk about, all sorts of conclusions and facts that he not only believed in, but shared with others. The funniest and one of the ones I remembered was that Satan lived in the drain. LOL. So this is how is goes. Break time comes. You go outside to find the little chatterbox putting food inside the drain. Then out of curiosity, I mean it's interesting seeing him do weird things, you ask him, "What are you doing?" He replies, "I'm feeding Satan." lol? Yea, so mostly everyday I would go over, unless I was playing Capture the Flag with weirder boys then the ones that exist in GRC ;D, and check on his daily feeding of food. It was interesting. No matter how many times we told him Satan didn't need food he continued dropping food into the drain.

Well, he got half of his facts right. Satan does live down there but he obviously does not need food. I believe there's too much trouble down there for him to handle that he can't even eat. So yea for God. When I'm in heaven, I can't wait to spend time with him. Actually, we can down on earth too, but in heaven there's no such thing called stress and tiredness. Woots for that!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

But I guess it doesn't matter anymore...

Shabeta's in the house! =D
Well not anymore, but she was. hahaa.
Yea. We had a blast talking, watching movies, and just acting like girls.
And the worst was that I didn't know she was coming till she was at the door.
Sisters these days. tsk.

I don't enjoy vacation. You think too much in your spare time. =/
I wish I wouldn't. I wish I could enjoy my day.
And when people ask me about you, I can only reply, "I dunno."
'Cause I don't even know you anymore.
We're complete strangers.
I thought it was just a short thing that would go away,
but it's been 2 months already.
I've lost almost all hope.
There's only a small flicker out of the big flame that used to exist.
And if you don't do anything about it, I'm not going to either.
I'd rather let it die then flicker on and off.
But one thing I know, that even if you go, I'll never ever forget.
Nothing can ever eraser that memory except friendship again.

I wish things could change.
Memories taunt me these days.
All I can do is hide my feelings inside.
ooh! I want a hug.from you

Memories last forever
Sometimes I wish they didn't.

and for your information, Robert's blog is under construction so don't bug him about it. hahaa! You never know him, he might of just messed it up sometime during the middle of the night because he was bored. Just like his room. He is so not predictable. =/

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

I'm part of that 10%

I almost died of boredom last night. So out came the camera again. xD
This time I did not pose. Insted, I doodled all over my LifePACs.
Sorry old books. =)


Yea.. and my favorite picturess..

Go hazelchazel!

Don't ask me I'm so into Math these days. I dunno myself. =/

Other than doodling and taking pictures..
I found a sewing pin on my bed. I repeat, on my bed! Don't ask me what it was doing there. My sister and her costumes. =| eh. Yea, so I started poking everything in sight. My LifePAc books are now not only doodled on but there's holes everywhere. Gosh, wasn't I restless. =)

Well, poking stuff did not entertain me long so pretty soon my hungry stomach gave in. And I just ate dinner. tsk. Yea, so I started eating and eating and eating with growth pains everywhere. I better grow quite a bit or else..

What a night. And what a day today. Went to my Mom's World Vision office to volunteer. Usually my mom works till 3 but today we had back till 4:45pm. I was so dead tired and still am. =/ Wells, at least the t-shirts finally arrived. Then we went to the basement, yes the basement, car park in other words, to sort the shirts. I almost killed myself trying to carry t-shirts back up. =|

I'm so tired now. =(
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That reminds me.. my title. teehee. 10% of what you ask? Sticky hands and feet. If you ever touch my hands or feet before, you'll notice it's always sticky no matter how much I wash them. According to the doctor in Massachusetts, only about 10% of all the people in the whole entire world have sticky hands and feet. (that's not the actual name but it's a cool way to describe it.) So how cool is that. I'm one of that 10 percent. How uniquely created.

The ones that arrive early at school are the lucky ones. =P

You get to sit up at the ramp and take pictures while screaming "Morning!" to the late comers.. Random thoughts come like, "Who counts?" and "Jon! Jon! Jon! Jon's here!" with a "shhhh!!" in reply. "No! Don't take a picture!!" The funniest one is when we saw Chanelle coming and Miss Cath said, "This time you have to say Morning really loudly. Chanelle can beat you all with one loud 'Morning!'." of coursee, It's the best seeing those startled faces especially when Beeps yelled, "STOP!!" so that everyone can be in front of us when we said morning.

Who said girls are boring and can't entertain themselves?
Dare say that again. xD

Monday, March 3, 2008

Just like a snow day!

Oh wonderful news. It's still snowing in Maine. March. xD
I wish it snowed in March when I was there. Not now. =(

It feels like we have 3 snow days. Woots.
Snowing? Yea, look outside. Can't you see the snow?
heh. Close enough.
At least we still have "snow days".

Get ready for boredom.
So Hazel was studying when she got bored.
Then she got the camera and started posing. LOL.


Ignore the messy hair. It's vacation!

How else can you describe a day like this? I finished one whole section of Math in 2 hours. bleh. You can't stop me when it's soo easy.

Yea for animation. I love my template now. xD

Sunday, March 2, 2008

zippers! =D

Half finished..

Yea for zippers! :]

Yessie, I made it.